Oh Sarah I am glad that you kept ownership of every pound lost. Huge huge hugs. I am thinking of you lots and lots. I am hoping for the best news!!
Only positive thoughts!!!

Sarah, I'm very glad to hear that they are going right for a removal rather than a needle biopsy. But hey there! Don't start thinking about the worst until afterwards. There is no sense in worrying just yet, you'll have plenty of time for that later. You've come too far in fighting to get to onderland to bail out on us now because of some illness, nope, no way, you don't get off that easy! :grouphug:

sarah - you're in GREAT hands with these docs, whoever they are. they are absolutely doing the right thing, and doing it all quickly. so be at peace. one of my friends knows of some healing meditation exercises. i'll ask her about them when i see her this week. NO, it probably won't cure CLL or lymphoma, but the taking-care-of-yourself aspect of them is VERY therapeutic in other ways.

darlin - NOW is the time to take VERY GOOD CARE of yourself.. gently. warmly. we're with you...

Breathe deeply and let our good thoughts wash over you. You WILL be okay. A positive attitude is key, and you've got that in spades, right?!

Rent lots of comedies (I highly recommend The Birdcage) so you can laugh a lot, and be good to yourself.

hey sarah. just popping in to let ya know i've been thinking about you girl. keep your head up. with all of us pulling for you you can kick whatever this is!

Hey I got up earlier this morning because I knew you were finding out yesterday and would have posted. (If you know what I mean!!!)
Whatever it is we are all going to be here for you. Whatever it is it won't know whats hit it - whip its *** (sounding all American now!)
I'm still praying for you and Lorraine and will do until you are better.xxxxx

Sarah -

I am also glad that they are doing the removal. They will have a better idea of exactly what is going on.

I can't even imagine the fear that must accompany this kind of situation. But I want to remind you of the one thingt that got you through your weight loss. YOUR POSITIVE ATTITUDE. You have it girl, use it to the fullest. Believe that no matter what comes your way, you will overcome.

We are here for you night and day. (((HUGS))) :angel:

Sarah,

I have been away from the board for a few weeks and then I come back to see your post. I am so sorry about everything that is happening to you. I know that isnt very helpful, but it sounds like you have great medical professionals behind you. Not to mention all of us here at 3fc. We love you and are praying for you girl!

Its been mentioned before in this thread but try to stay as calm as possible until you get a definite diagnosis. I know from experience that researching conditions on the internet can be scary... Dont scare yourself! You want to be in a positive mindset and reading scary stuff on the net will not help at all. The doctors know what they are doing and they will tell you the best way to go about treating this.

I dont know what else to say except to stay postive and take care of yourself. You are ont of the strongest and most positive people that I know.
<<<<Hugs>>>>>> to you and Lorraine. You will both be in my thoughts~

Sounds like you are in great, capable hands. It sounds like you are doing better. You and Lorraine are still in my thoughts and prayers.

Hi, Sarah,

Just wanted to let you know I am still thinking of you and have you in my thoughts and prayers.:^: It sounds like you are in good hands, medically speaking, so that is very good. Yeah, you DO own the weight loss...good job. Take care and keep us posted.

Thanks for keeping us posted, Sarah.. you're still in my thoughts, as is Lorainne (how is she holding up?) and I hope you know everything before the weekend... I know waiting is so hard.. we're here for you :grouphug:

Sarah,

Sending extra positive vibes your way this evening and into tomorrow. You're in my thoughts and in my heart. Good luck tomorrow and please keep us updated.

You guys are amazing.
 

I just wanted to say thank you, and let you know I'm ready for tomorrow. They're going to remove at least one, and hopefully two, big stupid lumps from my neck (the bottom of the side, where the neck meets the shoulder, in case you're wondering.) I'll be under general anesthesia, and it's happening from 10:15-11:15, so think good thoughts!

Lorraine and I are still wrecks, but we're holding on. Whatever happens, we're in it together. I don't even know what else to say, because it's all so obvious, and it all goes without saying. The doc's have NOT been encouraging, and of all the 4 options presented, only one isn't Cancer: Sarcoidosis (Sarcoid.) The others are Lymphoma -- the front runner -- Chronic Lymphatic Leukemia, and the outside contender, Esophogeal Cancer.

I sure would love it if it were some crazy bacterial infection or something, but I'm doing what the doctors told me, and preparing myself for the worst. Yes I hope, but I'm trying to ready myself also.

I'll check back in later.

I love you all. :grouphug:

I'm backing a longshot--cat scratch fever. I've heard that it presents like lymphoma.

You're in my thoughts, and I'll be sending you extra good vibes starting at 10:00 am your time.

Sarah...Your strength continues to amaze me. I will be praying for you during your procedure tomorrow. It will be 5:00 here so picture me in my Betty Boop pjs and slippers, because I will be with you in spirit!

Best wishes and good luck - if anyone can beat the odds, it's you!

I had not had the chance to be on for a couple of days, so I was just reading the updates. I hope that your surgery went well today Sarah. Kudos on them taking them out as opposed to doing a biopsy only. I hope that you don't have to wait long for your results. Time is such a ***** in these cases. I hate that I can't do more. *Huge Hugs*

Again, thank you all so much......I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed by all of your responses and immense caring. (I'm going to repeat that sentiment over on the other thread that I'm afraid to read! ;) )

Sheila, we were hoping for cat scratch fever, but apparently the lymph nodes which would become enlarged are in the armpits, not the neck -- and my armpits are A-OK, alas.

I'll give more of an update on the other thread. I'm truly afraid to read it because I know you're all going to make me bawl!