What a horrible night, SAPF. I'm so sorry. It's too bad your friend can't see what a butthead user his boyfriend is It must be true that love is blind.

My day isn't starting off well. I have to put my 15 year old dog to sleep today. He woke up very ill, and I said the last time he was ill that if it happened again, I wouldn't put him through the pain of treatment. So his little body will be set free today.

Oh Sheila, ouch!
Been there, done that -- I cried for days.
But giving love is always better than not - I tried not caring about anything in my life, but had I stayed in this place, I would have died.

Hi guys. Just thought I'd check in. I've gained about 4 or 5 pounds. Hard to tell with my scale. Now that I've done that, I need to go back to my weight loss diet somewhat because I'm starting to feel fat again. Why the gain? A very nice life event - I think I may be in love --- with the guy who is madly in love with me. There have been many nice dinners at nice restaurants -- too many to count, and many afternoons spent cooking together in the past 5 or 6 weeks, also many long walks --- but maybe there needs to be less cooking and more walking?

but wait jeannie, you gained back up to goal! you lost too much, remember? as long as you're aware, i think you'll be fine. i'm so happy you're in love!

me, i'm having a GREAT day. i feel awesome. i feel sexy, even! i took a picture to try and show how i feel. and i wrote about why i feel so great in my diary:

http://gonzostar.diaryland.com/entry1010.html

now i'm trying to spread they joy! YAY for TODAY!!!

SAPF - Girl, I am sooo frickin proud of you!!! You stood up for yourself despite all the pressure to just shrink back into the shadows and take it. I know you're upset and angry and HURT but you know what? That little episode cost him a lot more than it cost you. What a weasel. My favorite part is when he comes out and says, "Can I just say one thing?" No, you jek, don't you think you've said enough??? Holy crap, doesn't he know when to shut his trap? I can't tell how glad I am that you didn't just sit there with your mouth closed. You would have regretted it for a long time. HUGS!:grouphug:

Sheila - I'm so sorry hon. I know what it's like and it's just hard. This week Keiko, my youngest Husky, ate 3 ant traps. I was frantic on the phone with my vet. That dog will eat anything.

We took the kids to the State Fair today and I know that a year ago I absolutely could not have done it. I easily walked around today and had no trouble keeping up. My legs and feet didn't hurt and I actually enjoyed myself. When it came time to eat, the family pigged out on Bierocks, Funnel Cake, Curly Fries, Burritos, Italian Sausages, and Fresh Donuts, but I did all the running and got the food for them, so I wasn't even tempted to sit down and eat. I waited until we got back out to the van and ate my lunch that was in the cooler and was totally OP. I felt really great!!

Jeanne, Don't worry, just enjoy being in love!!!

SAPF, I'm also proud of you for sticking up for yourself and I'm sorry that you had to go through that. What a total jerk!!

Sheila, I'm sorry about your dog and hope that you're doing okay. In the place where we live, the management just told us on Friday that we have to get rid of our dog, and I think we're going to move instead. We can't get rid of him.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend!!

Sheila - I'm so sorry :( Doggie heaven does exist!! Deepest sympathy from me. *hugs*

SAPF---- Ooooooh myyyy Goooosshhh. You poor, insulted, STRONG thing. I am so proud of you for sticking up for yourself. Good for you. You do not deserve to be treated like that. I wish I had the guts right now to tell my best friend AND her boyfriend where to go.

Mother Goose--- GOOD FOR YOU! That is an ACCOMPLISHMENT. I could never go somewhere with all of that good food and turn it down. You are one of my biggest inspirations here. Thanks!

JML---- Yay for love! "It's all we really need..."

Holly --- You're one of the greatest here too. I'm so proud of you and you deserve to feel fantastic!! You are fantastic, that's why!


Me? Still with the "mom" and "best friend" issues, for those of you who remember those. I'm getting so tired of it.....

Holly - I'm sorry about your job. You'll find another that isn't boring.

Anagram - I was so sorry to hear about the loss of your mom. I will be thinking of you often.

SAPF - Thanx for the PM. I went and read your journal, and MAN, that really sucks! Jealous gay men are even worse than jealous catty women! And really - how much of a "friend" is your best friend if he won't stick up for you in front of such an A**hole? Big hugs to you...

Dan has joined me in the ThinWithin program. We haven't got it down, but we are doing pretty well. it's much easier to stay on plan when Dan is trying to be on plan too.

We are now waiting for Elijah's Korean Passport to be issued, then his Visa from the U. S. Embassy in Seoul and then we can go and get him! Hurray!

We have almost finished our nursery. . .Here are some pics:
http://homepage.mac.com/danlovejoy/PhotoAlbum17.html

Angi, What a lucky little boy to have such amazing parents!! The nursery is great and I'm so very excited for you!! Can't wait to see more pictures of your adorable little boy.

Awwwww, You have a Curious George nursery!!!!! That is soooo cute!!!! :D :D :D :D

I can't wait to see your baby!

I love Curious George! The nursey is soooo cute!

Wow, I haven't been to this thread for awhile and had no idea how much I'd missed!

SAPF, good for you for having the strength to stand up for yourself to that total jerk!

Sheila, as heartbreaking as it is, I'm glad you can take comfort in the thought that he's at peace and out of pain - I know the scenario well...

Jeanne, congrats on winning the "love" sweepstakes and if contentment brings a pound or two, who cares now that you know how to control that part of your life you won't allow things to spiral out of control - just savour the love!

Holly! Great attitude, you're oozing so much confidence I have no doubt that great job will leap out at you. And I must say the little black dress looks fantastic, you go girl!

Angi, the nursery is absolutely darling. You must be so excited about this new chapter of your life - that sure is one lucky child to be coming into a happy and loving home. Babies...almost gives me a yearning or two (but I think I'll be satisfied with the prospect of grandchildren)

mthrgoos - I know from your "confession" thread that you're feeling a wee bit down right now, but the fact you were within reaching distance of funnel cakes and were able to restrain - well, for that reason alone I grant you a medal of honour!!

:)

I forgot to say thank you to everyone for your kind & enouraging words after reading my journal entry from a week ago. It's been exactly a week & I haven't heard from either of them.

I'm going to let my friend contact me; when he does, we can hash it out in person, alone, as he & the boyfriend are not a package deal anymore. If I'm to get together w/my friend, that is who I am getting together with. The boyfriend lost the privilege of being in my company. The end.

I didn't put this in the journal entry, but I'll share it w/you now. This friend's sister was/is bulimic. She went to a college that has a reputation for girls being fine when they enrolled, bulimic when they graduated and/or left. The boyfriend would never DREAM (I don't think) of bringing that up (no pun intended) 3 times in 90 minutes in front of her. To me, this is in the same vein.

There was one other thing that my friend was indiscreet about, something not everyone knows about me, or has to know. The boyfriend brought it up once, as if I'd told him personally. My friend knows I was upset about that. What happened last week was the icing on that cake.

I don't think my friend's ever seen me that angry & upset. I'm wondering if he's afraid to call me, but at the same time, :censored: him. Life is too short.

My other friends tell me they can't believe the friend didn't tell the boyfriend to :censored: off, or otherwise stand up for me. *shrugs* There is nothing I can do about that.

Going back to the gym tonight to work out aggressions from work. Hope everyone else is having a grrrrrrrreat week. :)

so i've got a weird job thing going on here. they're having me fill in temporarily in the office i want to work in, starting next monday or tuesday. full time hours, all that. then, from there, they *might* hire me on permanantly. but she's interviewED or is invterviewING (not sure which) other people, so it's not in the bag. it's kinda scary, actually.

but better than nothing, i suppose.