HEEEYYYY!!!

I am doing a driveby post, but I am posting. I will weigh tomorrow. I am fatter than I have been in a while, and my clothes are limited right now because I am too fat for most of them.

I am also getting a divorce. I think. (We closed out our joint bank account and he sent me links for apartment rentals.) Maybe not. (When I asked him when we wanted to tell the kids, he said, "Not until the decision is final," and has been perfect husband since.) Lots of chaos. And me avoiding responsibility for bad food/exercise choices.

I will do a real check-in soon.

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Jenni: Oh my gosh! I’m so sorry to hear about your husband. I hope that all is ok, and he is better. What a shock. Hang in there, I hope you have someone to help you through it all, too.

Uber: It’s too bad you have to work so hard to be ready to go on vacation. It is so tough trying to get ready to go. I’m sure it will be so very worth it!

Lemon: Sorry that you are still fighting the bra issue. Ugh!! Hopefully your current weight number is temporary! I’m glad you’re DH has seen some success!! Also, good to hear about your plants. I don’t know why, but it makes me so happy to hear about things growing again!!

Lilion: Kind of hard to get back on track after deviating a little. I can relate. I hope your back is better today!!

Jill: Welcome!!! We have a little in common, I have a few cows, horses, chickens, dog, cats, geese, a turtle… Regaining is no fun. But you can lose it again, and let us be here for you to help! There are a lot of very supportive people on this thread. You’ll get lots and lots of encouragement!

Laurie: Dang. You have been through so much lately. I’m so sorry. I hope that whatever you decide with divorce/marriage will help you find some peace, too.

As for me, I did make it through the 2 hours of spin, but my gosh it was tough. I was ok until about half way through the second class. Then, I was starting to feel very tired and sore. But there is an older lady (maybe 70-80 years old) in that class and she didn't stop. Although she is older, she is insanely fit. An inspiration, for sure. But I figured if she could make it, so could I. :) So, I made it. It took a while to recover and I was super tired the rest of the day. The good thing is that they only will do this once a month. So I have time to decide if it was worth it. I did feel like it burned a ton of calories. The only bad thing was that I didn't feel up to hiking on Sunday. Since my daughter ended up going to work, I didn't have anyone to push me to go, so I didn't go. That's ok, but I do love hiking. So, we'll see if I do it again.

I weighed in today, and at least I'm down from last Monday, but this was the last weigh in for March for me. My total loss for March was only 1.4, so I'm not pleased. Yes, it is still down, but that's not enough per month. I don't think I was too far off course ever, but I may need to make sure I'm staying disciplined. So fun...

Diane: yeah for making your two hour ride! My legs turned to jelly reading it because I know how I was after 45 mins. Sway and buckle! But good for you! I hope you find a huge difference in the next few days. Maybe that will be your monthly key to dropping to a different decade!

Laurie: I am sorry to read you are having issues. Did this come about over your vacay? I just hope it all settles for you soon, this year seems to have brought you a lot of tugs on emotions and feelings. Thoughts your way that things will settle soon.

Am: I want to eat lots of chocolate RIGHT NOW. so instead I’m typing so my hands are occupied and I can’t feed my mouth. How’s that for combatting?

I have to figure out how to water my jugs. We haven’t had any rain thus far and I’m afraid I’ll loose whatever may grow whenever it may warm up. It’s done neither. I noticed the Smokey the bear signs around me are marked as HIGH for fire danger. I’ve also noticed a lot of areas are cutting back brush, dead trees etc as I’m North - there are a ton of undergrowth to the pines. It makes you wonder about fire in that way. I can’t begin to imagine at all. Anywho - they are really dry and then frozen upon further investigation. I think I’ll see if I can find a spray bottle and go take care of it as I can and hope that the days warm and they get growing. I think I might also move them up onto my deck. Maybe that will help too.

I’ve gotten one jug of water in and it’s just not hitting the spot. I’m cold and tired (my meds? End of winter? What?!) and the only thing I’m kind of doing is my laundry - but I haven’t folded any yet. And I’m up to 4 loads to get folded with another 3 to finish. Maybe that’s a goal - to lose weight so my clothes aren’t as big and my laundry loads can get smaller w less fabric.

Well - I hope the rest of you are doing ok. All this new week news - I hope worlds settle some!

Hubby developed pericarditis last night. This is inflammation of the outer heart. His echo cardiogram came back he does have damage to his left side and he is in congestive heart failure. He will continue to be on meds and he may experience shortness of breath and become tired very easy. He will remain in the ICU until he is stable for 36-48 hours then go to the regular ward. They hope to discharge him by Friday.

This has taken a toll on me. We are young. He's my rock and the father of my kids. I need him! I've has a couple panic attack s luckily my doctor sent some anxiety meds for me. His family is being a pain I know they are worried and live 800 miles away but it's added stress on me. I just need prayers!

Hi Everyone!
Firstly, JenJen- How very scary and upsetting. I hope all will be okay for you and your husband soon. Lots of hugs from me.

I used to post here many many moons ago. And now that my weight has bounced back on, I find myself back here. Posting and reading kept me focused and inspired as well as motivated to continue.
I started Keto last week as many people at my job and my Husband's job are on it and they are all losing so much weight. One woman, on another shift, is hardly recognizable after 5 months and nearly 60 pounds of weight loss. A friend of mine from my shift started Keto 3 weeks about and so far has lost about 15 pounds. She's a petite thing, and the 15 pound loss looks amazing on her. She has 20 more pounds to her goal.
So with info from her and my own research, I decided to dive head-on into strict Keto. I thought it would suck like all other diets but really...it's been a breeze. I've lost 8 pounds last week, all water weight I'm sure, but it's a nice motivator.
My weight has stalled since yesterday. I know that's a short amount of time but I've become used to the scale moving each day from last week. I know now I'm getting into the real weight loss here and the scale is not going to go down as fast as this first week.
Today's goal is to stay on plan as best I can as I've completely forgot to make a lunch for me to take to work. Here's hoping I can find something suitable.

Hey everyone

Welcome Sakai and Jill!

Jenni Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry!! How awful, how stressful and hard. I will keep you and your hubby in my prayers. What a sudden, unexpected, and scary thing! I hope he has a smooth recovery!

I did a quick read through, but I'm still too busy for personals right now.

Good news is I'm down to 247 which is officially 50lbs down from my high weight of 297 in January of 2017. Couple of NSVs to report-- slid right into the booth at my favorite restaurant yesterday. Earlier this year, my midsection pressed against the table, this time, I didn't even think about it until afterward, when I thought, wow! I fit! Second NSV, I have a pair of shoes that buckle around the ankle. They used to be really hard to put on because I had trouble reaching the buckle. Yesterday, bent right now and buckled them!

See ya'll in ten days when I'm back from my trip!

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Uber: have a wonderful time! Safe travels and all. And yeah for smaller everything! I’m sure you’ll walk off more in France. Enjoy your travels.

Sakai: welcome! Good luck on the new journey - the scale tends to drive me nuts but I try to check daily. If not I tend to stray so I have to deal w the nuttiness.

Jen: hopefully your DH gets through this without further hurdles. I can’t begin to even know what to do. Just love him, make sure your kids are talked to - sometimes their worries don’t come forward or they hold them in so be sure dad talks to them daily and make sure they have some time for them to make sure he’s on the mend (no matter how you tell them they need to find out for themselves). And for you, make sure you take a bit of time to catch your breath. I’m sure you are by his side constantly but even if you give yourself a moment to have a cuppa and a hot shower and put on something that makes you comfortable to sit with him. Sure you are young, but medicine and technology has changed so much and in his favor I am sure. Sending prayers your way for continued recovery. And peace for the rest of you to get through this.

Laurie: oh girl - I’m sorry - with everything that has sprung up in the last few months I hope your world settles down some. And I hate clothes that don’t fit.

Lil: how has your healing been?

Hello all!

Am: everything hurts and I came too about 230 and came downstairs at 430 and my coffee is done so I’ll have to grab a cup here. I don’t know if I slept weird but I have a neck pain right at the base of my skull and out to the side. It sure what that’s about but it can just go away.

We have a school activity today, I’ve got a kid to get to the doctor and grocery shopping. Not to mention all the normal crap I tend to put off at my house to do. I am continuing on my fast. I’m sure DH is down lbs and me not so much. Alas, just keep looking forward and stop giving DH the sideeye.

:broc:

So I’m trying. Some days it doesn’t seem very good or strong but if I can get out of this decade I’ll be happy. Yes I’m the slowest to leave. I hate exercise (time waster to my day) and I find sweets - always the sweets. And calories feel like micromanaging. Oh and throw in holidays or other celebrations or travel and this abacus stays sliding back and forth. Today I have nothing prolific to offer other than my grumbles.

Oh and the elusive bra - I’m even looking at making my own. How crazy is that? I don’t know if I will but I’ve been researching. I think it’d be more about fit then cost. But I’m not sure I want to go into the cantilevered business for myself.

Alrighty - may everyone’s days look up and look better!

OMG Jenni, I'm so sorry to hear what's happened to your husband! I can't imagine what a shock it must all be and how you're feeling or even coping. I'm thinking of you guys and I'm praying for him and for your family for healing and strength and peace. Sending you hugs and hoping he's much better by now and on the road to complete recovery and restoration.

Uber: I hope you finish your edits so you can enjoy France unencumbered by work. Yay 50lbs down from your highest weight! Safe travels.

Lemon: That sucks about the bra shopping but I can relate because I remember having a similar experience at Target. It's like "my dear good shop, XXL is not a bra size for someone telling you're they're a G cup."

Jill: It's lovely to meet you and I look forward to getting to know you better. You've done it before and you can totally do it again. All of us here know what it's like to backslide and succeed and backslide and succeed and this is a great support group.

Laurie: I'm soooo sorry to hear what's happening with your marriage, friend. Please be kind to yourself through this difficult time. Justifiably I can imagine that your priorities lie away from diet and exercise as well they should. I'm praying for you guys and sending you ALL the hugs!!!

Diane: I don't do much (or any) group fitness but I definitely know the power of motivation of competing against an innocently unknowing stranger. I'm glad you made it through. Even though your weight loss was not what you wanted for March, at least it was a loss and not a gain, the latter which is miles easier to achieve, as we all unfortunately know.

Sakai: My mom is on and off keto and I can say like any diet, it works if you stick to it. How are you managing so far? Do you like it?


My weekend was as usual a food mess, but I'm back on track. I've joined lenten fasting for this last week (Holy Week). I'm praying for all of us for our journeys to lose weight but more than that for our real life non-weight related struggles, and for our families and friends and loved ones for peace and joy and strength to face this world, and of course for our world. I'm catching up in the middle of a meeting and have to pay attention now. Wishing everyone a great week!

Toasted: oh I hate stupid bras. I’ve concluded that I will just be frustrated until I get back to a smallish side but there are no guarantees of that. Bah!

Can I ask, Will you be celebrating Easter? I saw you mentioned Lent so I figured I’d ask. I bought the goods for the Easter Bunny and I still hope my fabric I ordered gets here soon so I can at least make a quick dress for my eldest for church and spring time thereafter. It just dawned on me we haven’t been using the rice bowl/box that the eldest was given. Sometimes I think I’m completely not with it as a mom. My mom reminded me not to say bad mom when discussing myself because I’m not - she said our kids are turning into nice people so stop using it.

How has your exercise been going ? I’ll join you in being frustrated w clothes tugging in the wrong places.

Am: I got the kids on the bus and just checked my plants. No worries about the jugs outside - it rained all night and they watered themselves just fine. Good thing I didn’t do it. Now if only we have warm up days and maybe get some things sprouting outside.

So totally want to break my fast right now. I’m horribly hungry this am and my coffee is not counteracting it. Wonder what’s up with that? I will see how long I can avoid food. I’m trying but it certainly is not easy to do.

Does anyone meal prep lunches for the week? I’m trying to come up w some grab and gos for my DH but my concern is by the end of the week if the containers get soupy or the fresh items mushy (I see that when I just put extra salad away if I don’t eat it the next day). I hate mushy mealy tomatoes, some of these I see they pack an sunny side up egg (gross to me days later). Can anyone let me know if indeed the meal preps stay fresh all week long or do they get mushy icky by Friday?

I miss my avocados. I will be getting some today (yeah!) and I will look at some of the unusual produce and see about maybe adding something new to my days. I also hope to pick up a kohlrabi bunch. I love those!

Ok - off to not think of food and get on with the day and my fast. I hope I can make it another two hours. Thus far it’s seeming a challenge.

Weight is up, mood is down, and I want to be back in bed. No time for posting, but I had to take time for Jeni.


Jeni, I'm so very sorry to hear about your husband. I can't even imagine the state I'd be in if I were in your shoes. You and your husband are in my prayers, for healing, for comfort and for strength. Let the doctors care for him and you take care of yourself. Huge hugs to you. I hope you have people around you to help out. :hug:

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Jenni: I have no words that can make it better. I am praying for you and your husband. It is times like this that you realize that while we all struggle with our weight and wanting to eat better and exercise... our issues are small compared to other issues that mean so much more. I'm so sorry you are having to go through this.

Sakai: Welcome! It sounds like you've had some nice success so far. It is hard to be patient on weight loss, that's for sure. If you stay with us very long, you'll notice that I say that all the time. Mostly because I'm trying to remind myself to not be so uptight about it. Anyway, glad you are joining us!

Lemon: I agree that you definitely should not say you are a bad mom! You do so much for your kids, and I'm sure they are doing great. Sometimes we can be so hard on ourselves, as mothers. They find a way to make it, and hopefully we've given them the tools they need as they become adults. Oh, and glad it rained for you! Get those little plants growing!!

Uber: Congrats on the weight loss, and the NSV's!!! That's great. Now go and enjoy that fantastic vacation!!

Toasted: Very well written regarding lent and Easter! I hope you enjoy the season! It is so true that yes, our weight issues are important to us and we need to continue to work on it. But there are so many other challenges in the world, too.

Lilion: Hang in there.

As for me, I had a good weigh in this morning. It was quite the fluctuation and I've seen that off and on now for a while. I still wonder about my scale, but it isn't flashing, I changed the battery not too long ago, and it isn't out of range of what it should be. So, I still think it is just me with some wild body issues.

Today is a rest day for me. I kind of love it in that the mornings are so easy going. But then I kind of hate it for when I log my food. No exercise means no extra calories available, so it makes it so tight. Oh well. Spin tomorrow.

Thanks for the welcomes, everyone. Today wasn't great but it wasn't all bad. I got to go to the gym but only for the 30 minute circuit. I wasn't supposed to have my granddaughter until 10 am tomorrow but my son's schedule changed and I have to go pick her up at 7:30 and take my grandson to school.....so no gym tomorrow. GRRRRRR!!!!!!

Morning all!
Thank you for all the welcoms!

ToastedSmoke- So far I'm loving Keto. I lost my cravings for sweets and carbs almost immediately and that was really weird. I know it's a side effect of Keto but I didn't think it would happen this soon, maybe it's a placebo effect working on me. Which is fine! either way, I'm not eating carbs. And I'm not really hungry, which is a plus.

Lemonthyme. I used to meal prep, but I think I did it differently than most. I put together all the things that were fridge or Freezer stable first, then the night before(or that morning) I would add the not so stable items. Avocados and other things that turn icky after being cut, things that I would rather have crispy. And for me, cucumbers. My cucumbers MUST be crisp and crunchy and so I only slice them right before I leave for work to go into my lunch container. Maybe prep and then put in that egg the day you will use it. I find greens stay fresh for the most part, and rice (when I used to eat it) there's lots of ideas on Pinterest.

It's day 3 of my weight loss stall. At least it's not going up, that's all I have to say. In tracking my macros I'm still falling short of 75% fat that Keto recommends. I find it difficult to eat fat without also eating protein. I must invest in some Avocados and Today made some Fat Bombs that should help a little. I fast over breakfast, as eating is one of the last things I wanna do in the morning. It takes me a good 2 hours-ish before I feel like eating. So I just wait until my first break at work to have a small snack.
I should take measurements. I read about people who stall but are still losing inches.

Hope everyone has a great day!

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Sakai: I always wondered how those meals stay fresh. I hate wilty foodstuffs when I open up my containers. I’ll keep that in mind. Everything gathers condensation and all foods breakdown with time. The pictures always look appetizing but I know what they’ll be by day 6 or 7. Maybe we should all have preservatives on hand :)

Jill: enjoy those grandkids! I know my kids would love to have my mom around more - we’re hours or half a state away. They see my DHs and like doing things too - somedays they wish everyone was closer. Maybe you can make some of their activities your activities? Do you all ride bikes? I know the gym will be better for alone time to focus for you but maybe you can work in some activity with their help. How long have you been farming? Do you garden?

Diane: ugh - that scale! I hopped on mine and though a bit less not where I’d hope but you know me and solid decades! Have you found different colors to try with your new hair? I would have to guess with that color that maybe something like a peony or turquoise would look sharp - of course I don’t know your skin tone or eye color - but I’m interested to hear if you have added splashes of new colors you have never tried before.

Toasted: I thought of you as I was fabric looking yesterday. I saw some beautiful African quilt fabrics and their are some sewists that make them up into beautiful pieces. I was looking for ideas for shorts - I’m kind of intrigued by Bodens spring line. I scammed a catalog that my GIL got (she’s 90ish, wonder how she got on their mailing list?!). I respond well to their colors. And I don’t care that I’m closer to 50 then 30 but I still wear shorts complete with my winter whitey legs. What’s on plan for the weekend?

Lil: I hope your mood has lifted! It seems we all have been having hiccups with moods and such. I have waffled being sad on and off the last few days. Who knows why. May you find happy in your day!

Laurie: good thoughts for you! Can I ask, why is he giving you the rental listings and not himself?

Jen: hope DH is out of ICU and rehabbing as I type this! I hope that you all have help with this time away from work. Oh those are always additional stresses you don’t need. How are your kiddos doing? Did DHs family come in to help?

Uber: I hope your landing in France was lovely and the weather beautiful. Please hit an outdoor market for me!

Hello all! Sorry if I forgot someone, I mean well.

AM: kids on spring break right now. I hope they sleep in today. I’d enjoy that. We have one who has to finish up their large project due next week. Otherwise it will be just laying low and family time.

My DH has hit the 0.0 mark this morn. He’s been hanging out in that realm so that’s been good! Me - meh, but yesterday was a PTO activity at school and trip to town for doctors visit. I went to the grocery as well. Came home with two bunches of kohlrabi. Yeah! But what’s up w produce prices?! Cauliflower is $4 a head (no), romaine $4 for 3 slim heads. Both are usually 1.99 and under in normal market conditions - maybe they are from the area flooding? At least the avocados are still lower. I thought to see about watermelons but they are currently the size of a cantaloupe. I bought the loupe instead. I can’t eat a lot as it makes my mouth itch but the rest of my family enjoys. And I looked at unusual foodstuffs and not part of my diet - they had agave, artichokes, the cacti - I just looked didn’t buy. Not feeling that adventurous yesterday to splurge on the unknown.

Ok I’m off - happy day to all of you. Best wishes and happy melting!

I love that our thread has become so active! Even if I am not keeping up at all. Just going to take a second to address a few things.

Jenni -- My heart and thoughts are with you. So devastating. Glad your doctor prescribed you some anxiety meds.

Uber - WTG on hitting that significant milestone! 50 pounds down and fitting into booths. You're rocking it.

Toasted - Just seeing your icon warms my heart.

Jill and Sakai - So glad you're here!

LemonThyme - Your presence just brightens everything.

Diane - Your perseverance ALWAYS inspires me. Glad it's paying off.