I'm so impatient to get to 199!
I know they say focus on smaller goals but how can I when Onederland is looming in the distance?!
So anyways, I didn't weigh today but I've been within a few ounces of what my ticker says so I'm not gaining and even if it does go up there no ways it's fat because I'm eating exactly the same. No cheats, no nibbles, nothing.
That means that I'll probably see a whoosh here soon. I'm hoping it's a nice 2-3lb whoosh.
But I decided to weigh in again on Wednesday morning, so we'll see. Until them I'm just hanging out, sticking to my way of eating and enjoying myself.
I had a few rough days this week. I'm not sure why. Some days were great and others I would just feel like I'm not eating as much as I want to and having to tell myself it's the binge brain.
Today I'm doing super great. We're having 'Thanksgiving' style dinner this weekend because my parents don't celebrate the holidays but they do love the food. I've planned out a pretty delicious amount of turkey. I'm going to have cauliflower mash instead of mashed potatoes and I'm going to eat a relatively healthy dessert, which will be peanut butter mixed with honey and greek yogurt. It's quite tasty. I also put two jumbo marshmallows in my coffee earlier! It was great and I'm not even over carbs or calories.
I'm just trying to give myself a big pat on the back for not deciding today was going to be a 'cheat' day. There's no reason I can't just eat within my plan and still enjoy the food and the company.
It's a little tough because everyone else in that house walks around talking about how it's going to be a 'fat day' and acting like I'm crazy for even attempting to stay on plan, but it's not their fault, it's all in good fun and they're allowed to have that way of eating but in my mind I know I'd be upset if I went off plan. It wouldn't be worth it to me. So I suppose that's our difference in prerogative.
I'm still crossing my fingers to see 249lbs by Christmas. It's roughly 7.5lbs away though and if I don't get a whoosh here soon I don't know what's going to happen, but I wonder if my body is hanging on because I know my scale hung around 260 for a while.