I wonder how it's possible to be so oblivious to my major weight problem. I of course know I have a problem, but I don't admit to myself how severe it is. Today when my clothes no longer fit, I touch the steering wheel again and my feet swelled because I didn't wear gym shoes it somehow struck me that I am not admitting the truth. I have gained my weight back and I need to get back on plan...TODAY!
So to start things back in the right direction, I thought I would come clean here. I have changed my profile pic to one from February of this year and have made my ticker accurate. I haven't been 259 in a year, that's enough lying.
I really didn't believe it could happen to me. I had this down. I had lost 110 lbs and everything was going my way. I wasn't ever getting back to my highest weight. Yep, that's what I thought. But when I changed jobs last year and hated my new one and cried all the time, I turned to food. In fact, switching jobs had messed with me so much, I think I gained 10 lbs from the time I was offered the job and when I started. Leaving my job that I loved after 13 years was just a lot for me to process.
But when I finally started liking my new job, I didn't quit, I just kept eating. When the new year came and I weighed 325, I didn't quit, I just kept eating. And now here I am. I have "started" over time and time again, but really have had no success. In fact, every time I lose 10 pounds and gain in back, it all goes right to my stomach!!!!
I still see my trainer DeWayne although he is none too pleased with me. I have the knowledge, I know how to do this, I just need to do it. So it starts today.
Thanks for letting me share....