I thought I would share my weekend with you guys since it was sort of a epiphany moment.
This weekend I threw everything out the window.
The dieting
The exercise
The caring about myself
I just chucked it out the window.
Before my 3 hour long philosophy class on Saturday morning, I crammed a packet of donut gems (the coconut kind) in my mouth and washed it down with a 20oz coke. Then, after my class I went home and went out for lunch with my Cute Boyfriend. As we were driving there, I was starving and I was starting to get shaky. Major sugar crash. Happens, right? Then, I started to get nausous. I broke out into a sweat and I thought I was going to get sick. THIS has never happened before!
The rest of the weekend was very similar and my body hated me for it.
My epiphany was this: I no longer desire to live to eat.
Hey, wait a minute! I'm a foodie! I love food and all that comes with it, the wine, the dessert, the dessert wine! How can I not live to eat?
What scared me is that my quality of life is not as good when I'm not eating what's good for me. Although I love food, I don't like food that makes me feel bad and that's what's happening to me.
I'm sure a bunch of you have already had this breakthough but this was very big for me. Hope this helps me on my journey!
I've hd that epiphany too. I also had an experience similar to yours. A couple of months ago I decided to give myself an "off" day to eat whatever I wanted after more than a month of being perfect. I went to the Olive Garden and had what I normally used to have. I felt completely GOD AWFUL for the rest of the day....or did I? I later realized that that's how I ALWAYS used to feel, and it took eating healthy and feeling physically fantastic to realize how bad I used to feel. it was amazing. I haven't had an off day since then.
I know I feel better if I eat correctly and I actually do enjoy fresh fruit and vegetables but I think I will always battle with my sweet tooth. I have been eating fruit a lot more lately though and have the garden planted so in a little more than a month I will be swimming in tomatos, cukes and squash. (I hope)
So happy you've found that turning point. I'm struggling between being depressed that I can't eat like I used to and enjoy some of the foods I used to enjoy - and just being flat out happy that I can't be a pig anymore.
But I definately have moments just like yours when I choose to eat too far off program - I guess I've gotten myself a lot more off sugar than I gave myself credit for.
I'm totally trying to live that philosophy (see my tagline below!). And I've had a couple of bad experiences like yours--I'm a slow learner. But I have come to realize that my body has been telling me to put on the brakes for years now, and I just attributed it to having a "bad stomach." It's remarkable how that little organ has made such a recovery since I've improved my eating habits.