So I started my journey, this time, on 3/2/11. I have done good about not going off my plan. My plan is just watching calories and trying to get the right amounts of everything. So today I ate 320 calories of crap all at the same sitting! I don't even like sweets really but there were left over choc wafer bars from when people were over and I just sat and ate 8 of them! 320 calories!! That leaves me about 430 calories for dinner and snack. I know I can stay at that BUT I am feeling like a big fat pig now because I ate that garbage and wasted so many calories!
It may sound stupid to others but I really feel like I just undid all the hard work I have put in for the last month. Worse thing is I want to go back and eat the other 8 bars left! Did I mention I don't really like sweats?! How does this make sense? I feel like my head is playing major games with me. I mean I can look at others and know that slip did not undo all they had done but I can't feel it for myself right now.
I feel like an alcoholic that just relapsed and is afraid to get rid of the rest of the booze cause they might need it! I'm afraid to throw the bars away cause I might need them another time! Who NEEDS dessert?!! What kind of twisted thinking is that?!
I could go on and on but I won't. I'm just feeling like such a failure today and don't even want to know what my eating that candy type crap will do to my scale on Friday.
I just needed to vent I guess.