Feeling like a spiral
 

Just feeling like an out of control spiral is eminent.

For the last few weeks something has felt "off" in the cosmos that is my life. So on Monday, the hubs to be was in a serious car accident. He is ok, not hurt at all, but he was hit at a dead stop, on the freeway by a kid on a cell phone who was traveling freeway speed and did not notice that traffic had stopped. Potentially VERY bad. But as I said all is good and he is not hurt.

However, the thin thread I had been hanging on to has almost snapped. Work is beyond stressful, and the girls in my office LOVE to snack to deal with stress. One of them has had lap-band surgery, two are on Nutri-System and one on Medifast. Of the four of them, including myself, only myself and the medifast girl are at all successful. Anyway, normally resisting the sirens call of the snacks in the trainers office is easy as pie. This week, since the accident not so much.

I had been at around 1100 calories a day, and feeling awesome. Seriously, I was shocked at the low number of calories. I do South Beach, so anything I usually eat is not high calories really. But this week. Lordy. Up towards the 1400 mark. That in and of itself is not a huge deal and making me feel icky. It is the three pieces of Dove dark chocolate, and the two pieces of Girl Scout mint meltaway today, on top of the piece of Dove every other day this week.

Now, it does not seem like a lot, I know. However, knowing myself as I do, the urge to just take the whole bag/box is sitting RIGHT THERE. I can see it and feel it and taste it.

Today I will be at around 1300 calories for the day, a lot of which are not the best of calories. UGH.

This sucks. LOL

OK rant over. :) Thanks for listening.

You are greatly blessed. You can get through this tempting week because you are blessed. You are blessed in that your hubs to be was protected from serious accident. You are blessed in KNOWING that you KNOW how to keep moving forward with improving your health. You are blessed in that your body was created with the ability to heal. You are blessed with one steady friend at the office (the medifast girl) to encourage one another. You are blessed with success! Twenty-five pounds is magnificent progress. Hang on to your blessings and watch them grow!

I know. Thanks! Some days though. It just makes me want to scream. LOL. But you are right, I am blessed.

Hey I understand how hard it is to hold on to your diet sanity when the rest of life gets in the way. I don't really have any advice because I'm dealing with the same issues, but I made a vow to myself amidst all of this chaos: "even though I am unemployed and a little upset and worried, I will not sit here and eat myself into oblivion. I have come too far now to stop. I refuse to give up." It feels really good for me. I hope that helps.

oh Yeah. I refuse to give up. Even though I am getting frustrated. I am getting married in July, and I just absolutely refuse to be in a "lane bryant" wedding dress on the beach!. Seriously.

This has just been one of those weeks. Work,kids, ex husband who just bought a brand new car but cannot pay full child support and is complaining that christmas is going to be lean, and hubs to be accident.

Oh how going out for dinner and drinks and saying screw it all is tempting me right now LOL. Of course then it will all come crashing down when I get on the scale and see what I did.

So, its butternut squash soup and roasted brussel sprouts for dinner. and twice the work out tomorrow. Will be all good to go :)

Sometimes just getting it down in black and white helps, so glad you posted. You have stated your intention to get it back together, so you will! :hug:

Yeah black and white helped for sure. I felt better right after I posted. I keep trying to do a blog, but sometimes that just does not work HAHA.

Anyway, hit it again with the work out this morning actually pushed myself a little harder than usual. Slid nicely into a pair of pants that has been languishing in the back of my closet, matched them with a nice pair of heels that I have not worn in MONTHS (I am a shoe addict) and feel fantastic this morning.

Thanks for all the support guys!