since I fell off the wagon, and the damage that can be done in a year is shocking
Last year I was chugging along GREAT!! I had lost about 30 pounds in 12 weeks. Hubby was doing a biggest loser contest at work and since I make all of his food, I had changed the way the whole family was eating. Well then it was Halloween.. and it was raining! Our plans to take the kids out trick or treating bombed and we ended up at Walmart buying the kids bags of candy to allow them to have their own little Halloween party. What the difference in them going out and collecting the candy and me buying it is, I have no clue, but I had no will power over that candy and I fell off the wagon hard!
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get back on track! I tried in the spring when I realized I was just a pound shy of my start weight last year. I didnt even make it a day I don't think I had no desire to watch what I ate, I wanted to eat what ever I wanted, when ever I wanted and eat it in gluttonous portions if I so desired.
Well lesson learned!! I got on the scale at the beginning of last week and was only .4 lbs away from seeing a whole new "decade"!! I spent Monday and Tuesday feeling sorry for myself, being angry and then searching inside of me to see if I could find some of the root of the problem. I did realize there was something inside I hadn't thought about before, and I did some more searching and coaching myself about it all. By Wednesday I was ready for battle! I'm still working with myself on what I feel is most likely the biggest underlying issue, but I am sure as long as I keep it in my "sights" I can over come it. (The issue is a long story in itself, and I'm not sure I'm ready to share it yet.)
But anyway, I'm back!! Have been reading every day since last Monday, and don't plan on straying away this time. I need this place as much as I need to be "in touch" with myself!