I was so excited that last week I saw 256, down from 273 that I relaxed a little. Okay, I relaxed a lot. I haven't been journaling, planning my meals ahead of time or staying 100% OP. I'm all talk around here, handing out advice that I'm not following. I guess I needed to fess up as I am feeling like a jerk, saying "close the kitchen-brush your teeth" to stave off pm munchies, or "eat a big salad at lunch" to fill up on healthy food instead of bingeing on crap.
I have a fair bit of stress going on in my life that has in the past lead me to over eat big time (and apparently I slipped right back into old patterns): child with ADHD, just moved in with b/f, still trying to unpack, attempting introduce my 46 yr old childless by choice b/f to the joys (really!) of part-time parenting a 9 year old ever noisy, ever in motion, ever emotional 9 year old, blending pet children into the household....and then there's work stress! Oh boy!
I want this weight loss more than anything in the world but really let my resolve slip when the stress added up. Instead of turning my back on my health when the going got tough
, I needed to reign in my whims and put effort into the 1 thing I could control...what I put in my mouth!
Yesterday, as I was rushing to get my son (imagine the tazmanian devil, cute as a bug with blond hair, blue eyes, in motion, not angry but whirling and making noise for 45 minutes straight) out the door to school and get myself to work, I forgot my lunch. I skipped breakfast too and then got busy at work, so all I ate yesterday was a 6 oz yogurt at 2pm, then when I got home from work, (son is back at Dad's for his week) the b/f and I just ate left overs from the weekend for dinner, I ate and ate and ate. THEN, ate 3 oreos, a handful of Chex mix and a handful of dried sugar encrusted Mango. UGH! I didn't eat so much that I felt sick, it really was just a little bit of every thing, so I wasn't fighting the nausea and self loathing of a binge but I was mad at myself. Darnit! I don't need to do this anymore. I have tools to prevent it.
Okay, rant done. Thanks for listening. Here is the plan:
1. Grocery shop today on lunch hour to replenish healthy food stash at home and at work.
2. Cook chicken breast and boil eggs for lunches. Chop veggies and pre-portion salad/spinach baggies for easy to grab lunches.
3. Take a Valium when son visits to calmly handle to busy-ness (Just kidding!!)
4. Track 100% of what I eat. Make friends with my Daily Plate account again.
5. Eat breakfast no matter what and don't forget lunch.
6. Mentally imagine I am back at square one with my almost militant attitude about what I eat, tracking food, being motivated.
7. Really really re-double efforts when son visits to stay OP. Uber-preplan healthy eating and activity.
2 people have signatures here that read , "Fall 7 times, get up 8" (Marigrace is one of them) I need to keep that in mind.