For the past couple of weeks I have been exercising pretty hardcore and loving it. I am quickly increasing my strength to where it was this past summer when I was working out alot. I am eating healthy 3 smaller meals and 2 healthy snacks. By day all is going according to plan and it feels amazing... but.
At night when the sun goes down and the kids are in bed it's like my brain turns off and my tummy takes over. I have been snacking (though it feels more like binging) on crap. Chips, dip, chocolate. EEERRRGGG! Then after it's like "what have you done". I can keep this flippin beast contained for a few days at a time but I realy need to get this under control. Why am I doing it? Just when I think I have it all figured out I don't.
I've done this before. It feels like I can't remember the trick. The key to stopping this late night binging. What was I doing differently? Why can't I get it this time? I feel ashamed and kind of dumb. Like I should know better so i should be doing better. But I'm not. I want it just as much as before...at least I feel like I do. I work so hard all day at this and then come night time it's like I throw it all away.
Sorr guys. Just letting off some steem. Not realy anyone I can talk to about this. My hubby just doesn't get it. Le sigh. Off to start another great day. Wish me luck in the moonlight.