Made my way back
I don't think I've been on here since November. I did not do well with the holidays and it unfortunately didn't stop there.The sad part is, looking back through my food journals from last year, which I kept up with pretty well, I can see when and where the control over my binge eating started to creep back in...it was July. It didn't happen all at once, I still managed to lose and then maintain for several months, but the writing was on the wall.
The good news is, I've been on plan for 8 days now. I've gotten completely away from sugar and anything sweet. The inner two-year old in me has been throwing an all-out temper tantrum...the kind that embarasses the parents and gets looks of horror from strangers, but I woke up today, and for the first time in a week, I was okay with the food I need to eat.
In the past 3 months, aside from regaining over 30lbs, I have stopped running (after working SO hard to run a 5K in November), stopped exercising, my depression, which was practically non-exsistant, is back and almost worse than before. That all is changing now. Now that I've got my eating back under control, I'm going running tonight, walking on my lunch break. I have resistance bands to start back with strength training. And most importanty, I am back to food journaling. This time I'm going to pay more attention to what I write down so I will see the sliding before it gets out of contol again.
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