My body is weirding me out. From first look, it looks like my legs are a lot smaller, but they are more muscular. I don't do machines, just Jillian Michaels video with 3 pound weights. Squats and lunges. I feel so strong. Yet, I feel like my legs feel so much bigger when I sit. I don't know if it's the effect of muscles or what. In the mirror it looks like I'm smaller, but once I put on jeans, I feel so big. I feel like my quads have gotten muscular, and I'm not sure if I like the way that looks! Yet, a lot of fat is gone.
Then I wonder if I should just restrict my eating and not exercise as hard because I'm getting all muscular. It doesn't help that I have small boobs, too, so I don't feel very feminine. I put on a bikini the other day, and I could tell DH didn't like the way it looked. I'm taking swim lessons, so basically I shouldn't be wearing a bikini, but I didn't really get favorable feedback despite that.
DH has told me he doesn't like muscular women, which kind of makes me stray from all my exercise. I have tiny little arm muscles now. Even my triceps look decent. They look thinner, but more fit. It's like I sabotage myself because I feel too muscular. Ironically, he's starting to do some weightlifting now. He's about 125 pounds and 5'8, and I've weighed more than him at times.
So what the **** do I do, just eat a whole lot less, do only Pilates, so I can be SKINNY? and not smaller and fit and strong? I hate Pilates, LOL.
The whole muscle thing interferes with being super skinny. Notice how many people at the Olympics AREN'T super skinny?