Being aware of what I eat. Treating myself kindly. Acknowledging that I have a real live issue with food and dealing with it accordingly. Drinking more water, moving my body a bit more (dancing, walking). Loving myself.

I went back to logging food and exercise yesterday, 1 week earlier than I had planned because it was making me crazy not knowing where I really stand on calorie deficit (I'm the weirdo who rarely gets on the scale).

I got in a shouting match today with my boyfriend over losing weight. (In the almost 8 months we've been together, this is only the 3rd time either of us has raised our voices!)

I was frustrated because I was up at 9 this morning (like usual), and 3 in the afternoon was creeping up without me having anything to eat or drink yet. We were discussing what to eat and I was talking about being fed up with dieting, and hating not getting to eat the foods I want, when I want. (basically just being a baby, because I really do know better)

He told me it's really more about eating less and exercising more (duh), and I yelled "I HATE EXERCISING!" (I wasn't yelling at him, just yelling out of frustration) Then he started yelling at me, and I started crying...ugh. Needless to say, my day dietwise spiraled out of control.

Breakfast:
Nothing

Snack:
Nothing

Lunch:
Nothing

Snack:
Tortilla chips
Chili Cheese Dip
Pay Day Avalanche
8 oz Dr. Pepper

Dinner:
3 slices Bacon Cheeseburger pizza (frozen, not take-out)

Snack:
Tortilla chips
Chili Cheese Dip

:(

A new dawn, a new day. :)

Last year was my disastrous holiday season. I started at Thanksgiving and went on past Easter. I gained back 20 hard lost pounds. The pain was enough to stay on track this season..and continue...and continue. I decided to "maintain" my loss from TG to NY. I enjoyed some treats and turned others down.

I am getting back on track in my own way, jumping into the more restrictive phase of SBD and upping my exercise...one day at a time.

I did pretty well over the holidays, so I guess I consider what I do from this point forward a sort of stepping it up.

My number one priority is to get myself moving again. Alas, there was a time when I was in the gym 5 days a week. I actually sustained that for quite awhile until I had a knee injury and the doctor told me to take it easy. At which point, of course, taking it easy became a lifestyle choice. Heh. So yeah, there's that.

The second thing I'm doing is sort of A Big Deal, at least in my little brain. My boyfriend and I finally made the decision to go vegetarian. It's something we've toyed around with maybe sort of thinking about over the years, and yesterday he came out of nowhere and made the commitment. I'm psyched.

I was a vegetarian for about 2 1/2 years back in my 20s, but I had absolutely no idea how to eat healthily. If I remember correctly, my diet consisted of cheese, potatoes and inhuman amounts of alcohol. Oh yes, I was a great vegetarian. With that in mind, I still felt better than than I do now, so I can imagine that making this change as an informed and educated adult will only bring even better results.

We ate the last of our non-veg meals tonight, and only because we already had chicken in the fridge that we didn't want to waste. Even so, I think we both felt a little gross and guilty. It was almost a relief to get dinner over with so we can move on now.

I'm cautiously optimistic. The key will be keeping my 6'2", 220 lb. truck driving carnivore happy. I would like to thank Google in advance -- I'm gonna be searching the crap out of the internet for recipes.! :)

I had to get rid of the cookies! I ate meals in moderation throughout the holidays... but then I saw the cookies that seem to have magically piled up. I took them to work :)

I'm also only drinking water for the next month... I have had so much sodium that I'm becoming preserved.

I'm happy to report I didn't fall off the food-wagon, planned and plotted and schemed to enjoy ONE fabulously perfect christmas dinner with all the fixins (oh yes there was gravy involved) and happily said no to other temptations so i could enjoy it without a twinge of guilt. I DID however, fall off the walking-wagon and boy did I pay for it! without walkies, my hips started hurting and I felt sluggish and tired -- once i started up again, things improved! Let's all just remember what works for us, and get to it :)

Holy moly, Trazey, you're SO CLOSE to 100 pounds lost!!!!!! Go on with your bad self!

I definitely went nuts on food and drink this holiday! I actually gained about 5 pounds since Thanksgiving!
To get back on track, I'm doing it in little doses. I bought a notebook where I taped a picture of myself from this summer and how I felt back then and why I didn't like it. Next, I put down my goals for the year AND how to get there. I want to lose weight, of course, so I put down ways I'll do it: yoga, count calories, and start running again. Then I listed a few races throughout the year that I want to train and run.
Now, I'm using the same journal to track my food, my calories, how I feel, what I'm thinking, what workout I did, and I use stickers to mark the good stuff (ate all my calories, don't feel bloated, good ideas that keep me going, etc.).

Seeing it all in print and having that photo greet me every time I eat reminds me of why I'm doing this in the first place.