I'm not a "just do it" sort of person either. If you don't want to use the treadmill, then don't. Do some other sort of exercise. Or bribe yourself to do it by hiring a dvd. Or move the treadmill so that the view is nicer. I find pushing myself too hard to do something will result in me rebelling, so I try to work around it. If I can't stick to a plan, I change the plan. It works, so long as the plan involves a calorie deficit.

And you totally sound deprived! You hate the treadmill, your working really hard, you've lost your favourite comfort mechanism (food), and the weight you have lost doesn't feel like enough. If this was a friend, and they told you that they'd lost 23lb but didn't feel like it was good enough for a reward, you would tell them they were being silly. Wouldn't you?! So, tell yourself you are being silly, and go and get your reward. And keep treating yourself to nice things. It really helps to ward off the deprivation.

Another thing you can do is immerse yourself in success stories. Read blogs of successful losers, watch the biggest loser, listen to Jillian Michaels radio show, read books about weight loss. It makes the journey seem more possible.

I think I'm in your boat, i might just be mostly motivation driven... and i honestly feel more encouraged by that thought. It forces me to constantly think of my reasons for wanting this, and to act upon those reasons rather then 'just doing it'.

UGH! i can't even tell you how boring my view is... im looking at a WALL of all things... i mean... it has Kat Von D on it, but still... totally not good enough. Music for sure helps, but it's not quite doing the trick any more.

I know, I've been silly... I'm going Christmas shopping with my mom tomorrow, I think I just might have to get myself a lil' somethin somethin ;).

Rebelling is something i have always fallen back on... my parents would tell me to not eat something, and of course i'd be sure to smuggle some before the night was done... If i'm forced by someone or even forcing myself to do something, i end up not putting my heart into it and not reaching my potential.

i have a lot of things to work on, and i thank you and everyone else who commented.. and everyone else on 3fc for that matter for all the help and advice :).

I so sympathize and understand. I went on holiday in June, lost weight while I was away entirely through my own efforts, but I think my mojo must have been confiscated on the return trip (maybe my mojo is a liquid or a gel) because I have not been able to move a single ounce in the right direction since.
Worse, my dietary lethargy has spread into almost every area of my life.
On the days when I work from home, thanks to the magic of wireless, I sit hunched over my laptop on a coffee table with the television on, spoiling my posture and digestion. Then I curl up and fall asleep. Then I can't sleep at night. Then I sleep the next day. and so on and so on and so on. Some days I only move off the settee to eat and pee.
The kitchen looks like the kind that they make cleaning documentaries about.
The sitting room is better but only just.

So I've just started the tiny, tiny goals idea.

Yesterday, a sort of run up day, was the day on which I ate no chocolate. Yes, I know that's an awful admission but the day before I ate a giant bag of chocolate buttons in the morning and a giant bar of chocolate in the afternoon.

Today's goals:
eat a piece of fruit without frying it/making it into a sandwich for breakfast (hey, what you can do with a banana!)
do the washing up and clean the worktops before I go out to open church
do the opening for 9 o'clock, not a rough 5-10 mins late because I can't be bothered
as I go out, move laptop to study, so that when I come back I'll work there and not on the sucking settee. hm, that sounded rude, I just mean it seems that when I sit on it it sucks me in and I can't leave
take the dog with the heart condition for a short walk to see if her meds are working.

That's it for today. There is So Much More I need to add in but I know if I make it too much at once, I'll do none.

And I'll send positive thoughts your way too - I think our mojos must be out together doing lunch, let's call them back!

Good luck!

Gabby... I don't really have advice besides what everyone else has said, but I do want you to know that I relate to what you are saying. It sounds a lot like me.

Somehow, the issue of me being fat got all tied up with my parents and their expectations.... I knew they wanted me slimmer and when I was young, they did spend a lot of time and energy trying to restrict my food and "help me lose weight." Consequently, I set it up in my mind that when I was sneaking food, it was not an issue between me and myself, but an issue between me and them....If I snuck into the kitchen and ate something on the sly then deep down I framed that as a battle won.

It took me a super long time (I'm probably old enough to be your mom) to realize that I was only sabotaging myself. I mean, I "realized" it, but I was unable to act on it.

I had to reach my forties before I was able to realize that eating healthy was a positive choice I was making for myself, and not a hardship that I was supposed to do to please others.

I don't know if counseling is an option for you, but I really wish I had been able to do it back then and work on my food issues.

Even now, I was worried that when my mom came to visit, and started praising me for losing weight, I was going to "rebel" and eat more. So far it hasn't happened, but it has taken me forty years to get to that point.

:hug::hug::hug:

I think you can do MUCH BETTER than me!

I'm experiencing this after a 17 day road trip. Luckily the diet part wasn't hard to get back to, but I really have to "sell" myself on the daily activity and the motivation for getting the rest of my act together is really pathetic. The to-be-filed pile is about to take over my desk and I'm getting quite cranky about it. I'm now setting myself 2 item to-do lists per day so I'll do SOMETHING. Sheesh, inertia...

Thanks everyone, it's good to know I'm not alone in this :). and i wish luck to all of us so that we may accomplish our full potential in everything we do!

i like the 'to-do-list' idea... i might have to do that... cause i spend a lot of days just sitting in front of the tv (or the computer of course, haha) and by the end of the day i realize i didn't do diddly squat to change a single thing about myself, my family, my house, my surroundings... i was just a lazy bum :/.