DH and I haven't had sex (sorry TMI) in 3 weeks. One week was TOM (again sorry TMI), but the week before and now the week after...nada. I brought it up to him and its like he hadn't even noticed. For us this is FOREVER!! Now to make things more tense for me, I'm coming down with whatever my dear children have had for the past week, I'm drained, my throat is sore, my nose is trying to stuff up and I hurt all over and when I get sick I get clingy and emotional...I don't handle sick well. I was never a sick child, rare for me to get any bug but my once a year cold. But since I've had kids I feel like I'm constantly getting sick! So now I'm whinny, emotional and having freaked out thoughts like he doesn't love me anymore, he's cheating, I'm not attractive to him anymore.
And today, my 4yr old told me he doesn't love me anymore. He's in Pre-K, which is part of the school system here and he goes from 8:15a to 2:15p. He wanted to stay home and watch cartoons and so a huge attitude followed and whils e waiting for the buss he informed me he doesn't love me anymore (I know, logically, that he's 4, and he doesn't understand the depth or meaning of what he said...emotionally, still hurt). I told him it was okay and I still love him.
Last night at school the teacher informed me that in the three days he's been going to school he's been put in time out twice; once for picking food off another child's tray and throwing it at her and once for throwing sand a child on the playground. Plus, he's acting out in line and at lunch. This is ontop of the fact that we can not get him to use the toliet to poop. We've done everything the dr's suggested, he no longer has diapers, so now he poops his pants, and he's been checked. There's nothing wrong with him (he's gone in the toliet before and we keep going back and forth but this time he's gone for about 4 months without pooping in the toliet and I'm about to lose it if I have to clean up THAT mess one more time). This is not my kid! Even the teacher said she NEVER saw behavior like this in him last year. I hadn't either but in the last 2 months he's become defiant and attitudish. I know he's testing his boundaries but he's testing my patience to the brink.
Now I'm sitting here. I've done my a.m. chores but I haven't worked out. I just can't get myself to go do it. I'm tired, depressed and just want to curl up on the couch. I'm seriously considering making this a "day off" and just catching on Sat.
Sorry for the long post, I needed to let this out.