Well, I guess it had to come. I've hit the wall a bit today. Lots of don't wanna feelings - I didn't go to the gym and rang in sick to work. Logically I know that July and August are always a bit rough for me with depression, but yeah. I wasn't quite as ready for it when it did hit. That's OK. Tomorrow is another day and I will make it to work tomorrow.
I'm just a bit angry at myself, which is stupid. The depression is part of who I am and I know I'm doing everything right - I'm exercising, I'm eating healthily and I'm socialising. It's just one of those things that happen and I can get through this - I've got through it before when I was in a much worse place, so I can definitely do it this time.
I've been trying to find a trigger and there's not really one - perhaps a show on TV the other night that was absolutely brilliant, but did leave me upset, perhaps my mother forgetting to ring me - she always rings on a Sunday night and didn't. And I'm wondering why I decided to focus on debt repayment this year rather than taking a holiday on a warm beach somewhere. I know that it's the sensible thing to do with the recession, but sometimes being a responsible adult sucks.
So yeah - not a good day, but it could have been a lot worse as well. At least the scale's back to 229 - it's been hovering between 230 and 233 for about 3 weeks now.
MJ, so pleased you had a good weekend.
Diane, I'm so joining you with the blahs.
CC, go you with the weight loss!
Rhonda, if you're lurking,

my love! Hope you have a wonderful birthday and your hubby and kids spoil you rotten the way you deserve to be.
Take care, everyone!