I'm back - again.
So about 1.5 years ago I got pregnant (after 6 years of infertility). At that point I was down 70lbs from my highest weight. I gained 40lbs with my pregnancy & had a terrible fight with gestational diabetes (despite being super strict with my diet we really struggled to get my numbers under control I ended up on high doses of insulin).
My baby boy is now 8 months old & I'm at the same weight as I was at the end of the pregnancy (actually back to that weight as I was down 20lbs a week out but have managed to gain it back).
I am nursing but that has been of no help.
I am really struggling to get my head into it. I have all the motivation in the world. With the gestational diabetes & pcos (& therefore insulin resistance) it's pretty much a guarantee I will develop diabetes (something that terrifies me).
But I just can't seem to get the dedication there. It was SO hard to lose those 70lbs. I fought for every single pound. I persevered through months of plateauing. I just don't know if I have the gumption to do it again.
If it wasn't for the health aspect I would just throw in the towel. Accept that I am just fat & that is the way it is going to stay. But that's not an option.
Sigh - I'm not sure what I'm hoping for here...