Okay, this is the first season I have really watched the show. I never really got into it before. This season, maybe since I have been serious about regaining my life, I've watched.
I am a big fan of Ron and Mike. HUGE. My father's name is Ron, he is a big guy, with a beard...they sorta look alike so I think that's what originally drew me to them. That and I feel so bad for Mike being so heavy as a teenager. I can't imagine what that has been like for him. I am sure there are those here that know that pain first hand; it just breaks my heart.
What prompted me to start this thread was last weeks's "Makeover" episode.
When Mike and Ron came down the stairs...Max's reaction moved me so much. For those that don't know, Max is Mike's "little" brother. He had just turned 17 and the poor boy was as big as Mike ever was, if not bigger. I guess their mom used to be very heavy too and lost all her weight a few years ago. Now, Ron is a ton thinner and Mike...well Mike's transformation is stunning.
That poor kid cried and cried. He said a few things that tug at my heart even today:
"Now I am the only big one."
and
"I just want to be NORMAL."
I was at the gym watching and I had to stop (I was on the tredmill) because I was crying so hard.
I think it was the word "normal" that got to me. I wonder how many of us have felt less then normal before and during our weight loss struggle? I wonder how many of us have looked at other people and even as we smile, secretly feel devistated that we don't look as good and wonder what is WRONG with us? I wondered how many of us were angry at ourselves, angry that we let ourselves get into this situation. Angry that we have to work so hard to just feel "normal". I wonder if other people hide from people that haven't seen us in years because we don't want them to see us as we are now?
"Normal". Who would have thought such a simple word could trigger so much emotion. I wonder how some of us have got it drilled into our heads that we are NOT normal because of our weight.
Anyway, I was just wondering if anyone else watched the show and if they had any feelings about it one way or another? While I never strive for their kind of weight loss, I am constantly comparing my body to the contestants at similar weights. In my head I am always asking myself "Do I really look like that too?!"
Its funny the tricks our minds can play on us. They can trick us into thinking we are only "a little bit chubby" when in fact, we are VERY overweight. They can trick us into thinking we are not "normal" because we are heavier then we should be. The show has taught me one important thing, that we can reprogram our minds to be more positive and that weight loss isn't just a battle with our bodies, but of our minds and our way of thinking too.
Normal.
Who would have thought that ONE word, would trigger such a response? Not me. However, that one word has me focusing a lot more on my journey...and I don't evern really like reality tv too much! LOL!