Wow I know how you feel. I used to be 140 lbs and a size 9 in juniors and I thought I was sooooo fat. Now I would give anything to weigh that. Even when I was a size 3 (my weight has always fluctuated) I felt fat. Ugh I don't know what was wrong with me!
I weighed 135 in high school and I thought I was fat. I worried over my chubby legs and wide hips. My friends told me I should have lived in the 1800's when ladies wore the big hoop skirts like Scarlet O'Hara. I was a true pear shape. Now my bust evens out the big bottom, but I'm scared I'll lose the bust by the time I get to goal. I really don't care though, I feel fabulous and that's what really matters. I wish I could go back in time and tell my 16 year old self that. I wish my mother would have told me that. She liked to point out that I was much larger than she was at my age.
I was around 220 or so pounds in High School... so I was "so fat" quite literally. But! After having been up at 330, the view down to 220 is a long one and I wasn't "as fat" as I thought I was.
Now I'm back down into the 220s and I feel frickin' slim! Can't imagine what it'll feel like to get under 200... or even close to goal...
I'm so glad that someone posted this thread. I was at my mother's house for the holidays and we were looking at old pictures. I've been told my ENTIRE life that I was fat--ridiculed and shamed by family and peers. When I looked back at the pictures from elementary, middle, and high school, it was like I had some cataracts removed. I was not fat. Sure, I was bigger than the other kids, but I was also 5" tall and wearing a bra in 4th grade. I was not a late bloomer. I also remember being really active, I loved playing around like most little kids. Being constantly told I was fat (and therefore unattractive and some sort of beast that lacked self control), I took solace in food. Also, my mother, bless her heart, like so many well meaning parents showed (and continues to show) her love through food. The problem just ballooned over time.
Because my weight fluctuated so dramatically during high school, I can relate to both the folks who had skewed perspectives of their weight and those who were actually overweight. In the nine grade I was a size 14 and by the time I graduated from hs I was an 18. By the time I graduated from college, I was a 26/28 (my current size as well). Funny enough, I feel so much better about myself now that I ever did at 14, 18, shoot even at 21. I look in the mirror and see the stretch marks and the cellulite and know I have a ways to go, but I'm still freakin' fabulous.
If only I could go back and tell my girl-self that too.
OMG I could copy-paste here too, except for the number being a little higher. I honestly don't understand why everybody kept acting like I was on the verge of heart failure back in high school, when I was really not that fat. Even the other girls' mothers were getting in on it, telling my friends to watch what they ate or else they'd look like me. I found some old pics of myself at that age that I had never seen before and I cried when I realized that I was the best looking girl in the crowd, even if I was a little bigger than the rest of them. I spent all those years eating and thinking that there was no point in even trying.
Now I know better. Eff those mean people. I'm the most fiscally successful, I'm the only one who finished school, moved away from home, and got an actual career, and in a year, I'll be back to being the prettiest, even if I'm still not the skinniest. So there.
I weighed 150 lbs in high school and my family always told me I was fat...So I stayed on a diet...was miserable...and kept loosing and regaining the same 5 lbs. I am 5'10". How fat could I have been?
Anyway...Once I got out of High school and away from my family...My weight dropped to 137 where it stayed for about 20 years. Even at 135...I never shook that image as the fat ugly one....I know...weird...
It's not that my family was so bad...just the way things were back in the 70's. The saying of the day was "you can never be to rich or to thin" Twiggy was the Model to emulate...then of course there was Cheryl Tiegs, Cher and Farrah Fawcett.
I was 115-120 lb (at 5'6") and totally thought I was fat. I exercised 6x weekly, watched what I ate and just drank tea during the day when I was hungry. WTF was I thinking????
HOWEVER, I also had a boyfriend that told me when I got down to 110 lb after being sick for a month that I looked GREAT at that weight and I should try to keep it there. Again, WTF was I thinking????
I was overweight in high school - probably got into the 200's then at 5'7. However I remember feeling GIGANTIC and I just looked at a picture someone from my class posted on our reunion site (20 years this summer). The shot was an overhead shot of us forming an '89 and I was like "well there's my best friends and some girl in the middle and where was I?"
oh man if only i knew than, what i knew now. i was 140lbs in HS .. i'm 5'4 .. but i was on the swim team. and i'll NEVER forget every day putting on that bathing suit and feeling so self conscience. ..i wasnt fat, but i sure felt it. yeesh. i remember some silly girls saying "ewwwwwww" as i walked by,,
wtf?! i was beautiful. to them man. i'll be there again one day.
bravo to us all for getting through our highschool years.
Can't imagine what it'll feel like to get under 200... or even close to goal... 
oh man if only i knew than, what i knew now. i was 140lbs in HS .. i'm 5'4 .. but i was on the swim team. and i'll NEVER forget every day putting on that bathing suit and feeling so self conscience. ..i wasnt fat, but i sure felt it. yeesh. i remember some silly girls saying "ewwwwwww" as i walked by,,
to them man. i'll be there again one day.