Reality Smackdown
 

Hi Everyone....I was cruising along 15 months into my weight loss quest, 40 lbs to my goal, my toes were dipping into onederland, I was down 6 jean sizes, they knew me by name at the gym and then KABOOM reality smacks me in the face. We got "the call", my mother-in-law had 4 to 6 weeks to live. In the blink of an eye we were on a plane headed for Florida. 6 weeks became 9 weeks and we had to finally come back home, 1 trip to Florida became 5 trips to Florida, and now 8 months later her pain can barely be managed, she barely weighs 60 lbs (most of that is the cancerous mass), and there is absolutely nothing anyone can do but wait...and pray. We talk to the nurses at the hospice house 2 to 3 times a day. They say, "...don't come back down, you don't want to see this." When she feels like talking on the phone, it tears your heart out. This woman who had always been so level headed, so grounded, so on top of things, has been reduced to a confused, babbling shell of who she once was.
Before "the call" I was on the forum constantly, I hung out in the exercise area and participated in the "Biggest Loser Challenges". I couldn't keep up, and added the guilt of letting my team down to all of the other "stuff". The stress level in our house is through the roof, I have re-gained 44 lbs and 2 jeans sizes (I should probably be wearing 3 sizes bigger now), and I am don't like where I am headed. I know how the book is going to end, I can't do anything about it so I have to start taking steps to reclaim my life.
I need this forum, would you all mind if I hung out here?

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We're here for you. Make sure you focus on yourself at least a little bit each day.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

Aw sweetie. I'm so sorry! I wish there were more that any of us could do to help ... but hopefully knowing we're here will do something.

Hang out - rant, vent, whatever you need. We're here. :hug:

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Of course you are welcome here! Remember, in order to take care of anyone else, you have to take care of yourself first...just like in an airplane when they tell you to put the mask over your face FIRST before helping anyone else.

You can't give from an empty well.....

We're glad you are here Vanetta! You should be proud that you've been there to support your husband and family through such a tough time. It's important to take care of yourself too, but don't beat yourself up over it. Things will calm down and you will be able to focus on it again. :hug:

Welcome back. You can always come hang out with us. :hug:

Welcome, my dear. :hug: Life can be very cruel, that's for certain. I nursed both parents through terminal cancers, so I understand how harrowing it is. :cry:

I agree with Jen about making sure you take care of yourself. :yes: And try not to focus on the regain; your 56 pound loss is something to be very proud of.

I'm so sorry you are having such a stressful time. Take care of yourself so you can take care of others. Welcome back! :hug:

Thanks everyone...

Exactly what I was thinking. Sorry about the smackdown. :hug:

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Welcome back!