I can so totally relate to you cfmama, though I am not a mama.

I have always thought about what it would be like when I am a healthy weight/skinny. I will no longer be everyone's fat friend that gets invited to do things only because people feel sorry for the fat girl. Will I have friends that love me for me and not use me? Will people like me as a healthy person? Will I be a pretty skinny girl or an ugly skinny girl? Will I let people treat me as they do now? Will the man I marry know about when I was obese and understand the battle that it took to become stay a healthy person? Do I deserve to be a healthy/skinny woman? etc etc. Just some of the questions I have for myself.