| Luminous |
11-09-2008 11:04 PM |
Back in the fold
I admit it, I'm being an unrepentant attention whore here. I thought I could just slip back in but it seems a big announcement in shiny letters works better for me, makes it feel more real. :)
I love this place, and inexplicably slipped away over a year ago. I got busy with other things, a few life stresses, and activity tapered off. My habits were well-ingrained, and I maintained just fine for about six months. But without the support here and having also dropped hard-copy calorie counting (I did it in my head instead for a while) I slipped back into those much older habits.
These include: - eating when not hungry
- not stopping when full
- not counting calories
- eating too many things that aren't healthful
- not listening to my body
- allowing myself to feel shame, guilt, despair, anxiety, and helplessness over the above
I miss being tolerant of my body. I miss being the nurturing steward of my body. I miss feeling calm when I choose to eat a giant piece of cake or some tortilla chips, because I know I'm just counting them in my daily total and hey, even if this day is a little high it will even out.
I also miss you lot. :)
The crucial link that I dropped wasn't just this site or calorie counting. The crucial link was that I love being supportive. I love (trying) to reassure others who feel just as lost as I used to before I first came here. I love feeling helpful and useful. It's kind of selfish, I know, and we can all see by my little graph below here that I'm not the goddess of weight loss.
But at least I am the goddess of me, and of my body, and I'm so very looking forward to working with all of you again!
Postscript: Ooh, I'm going to have to adjust that graph upwards tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I'm about 12 pounds higher than that now! >.< |
