Thanks everyone!
Funny thing, yesterday I was wearing a new tank top (yeah my arms suck but I don't care, it was hot here!). This tank top was form fitting and when I walked past a mirror I saw the NON HUGE me!! I had to stop and look, "who is THAT?" I even stood there and posed a few times. If I stood with my big arms sort of behind my back, and only looked from the waist up, I looked NORMAL weight! And curvy! It made me smile. Visions of things to come