Hey guys and gals
I was trying to go to sleep and something kept me up... Something I felt like I wanted desperately to share with anyone who is willing to listen
The saying goes, "It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all." I truly have been thinking about this quite a bit... If you have no interest in the feelings of a lonely man then maybe you might stop now! Before you regret it ;P
I am 21 as you might know by now... My name explains much however I never intended it to mean anything
I just like that name... I'm still a Virgin and it's not that I want to you know... Well I would be lying if i said I wasn't Interested in sex... But it's not as important to me as finding someone I love, and spending the rest of my life with them, or a very long time
And of course have children of my own.
I went walking today much longer than intended.. But you see I live near the beach... And decided to take a nice long stroll on this hot 80 degree day, to see what was happening... The smell of the salty ocean and the hot sun shining down on me reminded me of being a child and walking down there after school or to hang out with friends.
As I was walking around the feeling, the smell, the beauty of it overwhelmed me I suppose, and I had a very warm feeling inside... However I had seen couples walking around enjoying everything together... And at that moment a familiar feeling sunk down within me... The same feeling I've felt for many years... That feeling of "I wish I wasn't alone..."
I desire so badly to walk down the street with someone I love more than anything, maybe holding hands and you know... I guess you could say I'm in love with the idea of being in love...
As I was walking home it made me think a lot about it... I don't know why I am undesirable to women... I know I'm over weight but thats currently a work in progress
and It's at the top of the list!
I'm a gentle giant... I really care about what people say and think... I'm extremely respectful, and considerate
I may not be the brightest penny in the jar but I'm not that dullest either -_- at least I don't believe so...
Now It's probably also because I do not get out enough to actually meet people... But even the girls I do meet, or the girls online do not seem to be attracted to me much... (I should clarify that these girls online are girls met on games I play... -_-)
I've got sort of a weird goth taste... Very different from the people around here... And I've also noticed that a lot of the girls are preppy, blond, and rich girls... usually stuck up... (it is California and I do live near a beach after all...) I'm also very shy irl... I guess that could be it too... Id never go up and talk to a girl irl... NEVER
Anyhow I apologize to everyone... I realize this is a weight loss forums but if any of you have any ideas or suggestions. I would greatly appreciate it
P.S. To never have known love is definitely hard... It breaks my heart... Because sad and lonely is no way anyone should live :'(
Edit: Oh and thank you all so much for your advice! I truly do appreciate it
and have been gradually adding to my list as the days go, should be a bit of time before my mom gets groceries again... But yeah! So far so good!