You have found a great place for support and advice. I've learned over the many bumps in the road that the weight loss trip is all about trial and error. As long as you are trying you are partly succeeding. If you try something and it doesn't work for you, try something else. You will find something that works for you and start losing your weight and being a healthy person.
In my past endeavors I've always had a reason for losing weight—to be healthy for my kids, for my husband, for my family, for whoever. It was never totally about me. This time I am being 100% selfish. It is all about me and what I need. I know in the process I am already healthier and play with the kids more, have more of a drive *wink* (see exercise makes me amorous) and I love the way I'm living my life now.