I went to my first Overeaters Anonymous meeting for this very reason: secret and binge eating. It is almost thirteen years later and I want you to know, you will move beyond this. Becoming aware of it is the first step forward. Thank you for sharing this.
I also want to thank all the rest of you who shared about your secret and binge eating. I have done all of the same things you ladies have done and more. One of my lowest moments was throwing a bunch of leftovers from other people's plates on top of some creme puffs and then when people weren't looking I dug under all that grose stuff and ate the creme puffs (one of my favorite previous "sins")!! I once ate a half-eaten candybar that I saw discarded on a city street! Someone could have had a disease who tossed that or it could have been peed on by a dog walking by. Worst yet, I didn't care. It was a candybar and I wanted it irregardless of its past "history". Can you imagine that?
I still have slips on occasion. When I identify a "trigger" food, I put it on my mental check list and it doesn't come through the door. However, when my DH goes to one of his many meetings and there are leftovers, he knows I will ask if he brought any home. Sometimes, he will bring me home the healthy stuff but then I see the old me trying to get him to be an "enabler" too. Just last night, I asked didn't they have any cookies? He feels embarassed when he forgets... I feel so sorry for him when I do that. I consider it the grace of God when he has moments where he forgets.
I can usually be strong but I have now come to believe that there are good days and then there are not so good days.... Here's to as many good days as we can take!!
Thanks for sharing this, it is a powerful reminder for all of us that we are indeed human....lest we forget.....