Again, congrats on this major milestone for you on your journey to becoming the YOU you were created and meant to be.
I guess, I have been so excited about being able to move down the sizes and wear clothes that I used to wear and haven't been able to wear in a couple of years that I haven't thought about that. I have lost 59 lbs total since 2004. I had to take some time off because of lingering illness before I could resume my weight lose journey. I have never felt better physically and emotionally. I feel like pinching myself. I re-started my diet and exercise program this past fall.
I am glad that you shared this with us because it gives me some time to think about what I will or won't do during that time. I am 31 lbs away from Onederland and if things go as I hope they will that could be by summer time. I feel fortunate that although I have been morbidly obese for 25 years I was a normal weight up to that time and I know and have pictures of me when I was that weight and size. I used to wonder if I would ever look like that again. Now, I believe that I will.
I guess, I would liken losing a lot of weight to winning the lottery or suddenly becoming famous. There is going to be new issues that you will have to deal with as you pass through and become settled in your new life. I have already noticed that other people seem to be approaching me more and are friendlier to me. I am a very shy and private person so I feel ill at ease with this. I don't always feel like being receptive back. My extra fat insulated me against social situations. I now realize that I liked that aspect of being fat. People left me alone or ignored me and I didn't mind that. I never realized that until recently. Whether we like to admit this or not, our fat served a purpose in our lives. Once it is gone, we will have to face whatever it was that we kept at arm's and body's length.
Is it possible that there is a part of you that is not accepting of this acheivement? Do you have conflicted feelings about what it means to lose 100 lbs and also be out of the 200 lbs weight range? What did those extra pounds mean to you? How did they serve you in your past? I think these are questions worth considering and possibly journaling or sharing with a close friend. It might give you some insight in why you still seem to feel bigger than you are.
For me, I can not deny that bending is so much easier that I find myself smiling even when I am by myself. I love how the seat belt fits when I buckle up in the car. I like trying on clothes and having choices. In fact, NOW, when I do see a glimpse of a butt much bigger than I would like, I grimace. I know I have work yet to do. I have an image of what I want my body to look like eventually and that is what I focus on. I am not sure if you have done this but it might help you recognize the newly emerging you.
Good luck, God bless and congrats again!
WOO HOO FOR YOU Alliesmom00
