It's not TMI Val...we want, or at least I, want to hear everything :)

I'm so glad that you are feeling better now, and I am so proud of you!

:hug:
Linda

Thanks so much Linda! :hug:

- and sorry that I hijacked your thread seraphin -- the point of my rambling was to encourage you to find your motivation for making these changes and remember them whether you're 'on or off' the wagon. I'm scared I'll fail too - and I have before.. I do it regularly - but we have to at least try right? There are all sorts of member quotes about failure only being when we dont get back up and keep trying.

Originally Posted by valpal23:
I never had this much weight to lose... I had always been 50 pounds overweight... but at 5'10'' I really didnt see it as a problem. Then a couple years ago MS decided to appear and my entire life changed. At 21 I was unable to do basic exercise like walk around the block... the world changed from being in the palm of my hand.. to me thinking I was dying. Anything that raised my body temperature made it worse.. and by several doctors orders I avoided warm showers and physical activity. I lost motor function, my balance, sight in one eye and had slurred speech.. so I used the whole 'well if I die tomorrow I'd regret not having chocolate today' idea.. and after a year and a half I was 325!

It actually took a doctor who had no idea of my history and no clue where I was coming from to look me in the eye and tell me I needed to lose weight. So depressing!! And I had soooo many excuses.

I did the semi-starving thing in highschool so I knew I could do it... but it was a matter of learning how to do it in a way I could do forever. It was so overwhelming at first.. I even told myself that if all I could do was lose 50 pounds I would have succeeded.... break it into small numbers. Make changes slowly and focus on the day to day. You can do this. It's a long term commitment, but it will stick.

(ps sorry I know that was all TMI.. but I'm doing really well NOW because I have relapsing/remitting MS and have been taking disease modifying treatment) I really believe that anybody can do this no matter how much they've got to lose.

wow that's a lot to deal with!! good for you for taking control of the weight and showing (me!) that "no excuses" means something!

Man, my partner was receiving an award and at the awards dinner her aunt snapped a photo of me. I didn't think anything of it until she emailed my partner the photos from the event. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I was embarrassed and ashamed that I had let myself go. I didn't think it was that bad. I realized then I needed to drop like 100. It was so much to lose so I still didn't do anything about until 2 months after that.

But I was feeling like crap about it. It took me a long time to realize that I could do it. Knowing that her aunt emailed darn near the entire family those pictures I thought I was going to have a stroke. I was fat for years, but come on how did let it get that bad? So it was quite the revelation.

i was 180 before i had kids 230 after my son got back down to 180 got pregnant with the pregnancy from **** where i couldn't eat drink or brush my teeth or semll anything with out puking . My daughter was born very anemic and 3 weeks early . i was 170 after she was born but could suddenly eat again . Leah was sick from birth and got worse, 8 week needles made her very sick and she ended up in hospital , where they thought she had leukemia and put her threw every test under the sun and some .. then they thought she had a brain tumor becuase she had avery mis shappen head( she would sleep on her right side only as she has reflux).

Her bloods were all over the place turned out my blood was attacking her blood in her body she was having a allergic reaction to the needles , she was anemic, had rsv and gastro ( gastro was caught in hospital) she was in there a week but i didnt get over it i got very bad depression. and my baby was still not healthy after all that she coughed badly all night and had reflux all day but was happy . we got rid of the cat but she still kept coughing . her health never really improved much, but the doctors finally put her on astham meds and she was fine for a long time and i lost some weight. then leah had a simple ear infection at 23 months was given anti biotics and ended up paralysed in hospital three times her size her skin was hard and she was covered in a weird rash. She had serum sickness and erythema multiforme.. an allergic reaction to the antibiotics. her kidneys spleen and liver were all affected and she couldn't move she was in extreeme pain if you touched or tryed to move her . she was in hospital on steriods ect for 4 days.. she had the rash for 12 weeks. my weight loss flew out the window .. once she was well we decided our house was too small and we built on lol.. ( more stress why not) march leah fell over in the bathroom and cut herself right where it hurts (labia) and ended up having an ambulance ride to the hospital it took 6 hours to stop bleeding ( she did it on the metal shower runner and cut a good inch which foir someone 2 is the whole area but luckily she missed everything important by about 2 mm. We had to go threw a heap of police questioning and they took are keys from us to investigate our house... *******s didnt even wait for the doctor who said its a very common injury (blunt tromur injury). But the doctor rang them and blasted them down the phone at 1 am in the morning lol..
so leah was healthy for 6 months after that .. so i decided to give her her 6 month needles.nearly 3 year old. i dont want her starting kindy un immunised. and she got sick again lol... cover in a rash blown up like a baloon .. but i managed to keep it under controll at home.. then she started getting sick a few weeks later . rashs hot burning skin.. swelling and she was getting worse every day antihistamines was helping but she was miseable.. in 3 weeks it went from a simple rash to whole body swelling with intense hot rash joint pain , breathing difficulties ect ect.. She had developed food allergies ... lol she is allergic to food colouring, presevatives and additives . Macdonalds had always made her sick so to had kfc she always got a rash on her arms and was very uncomforatble.. so i just avoided it ( turns out there a very high doses of preservatives and crap in there burgers) but she had become far more sensetive.. went to any allergy doctor and found out all she is allergic to air born allergen, cat, dogs, hay, grass, grass seed, pollen , metal , bark ... lol colourinf preservatives lol... and so on .. so i had to change everything.. and in november 2007 she was healthy again and i started to loose the weight december 12th i weighed myself and was 288.8 the rest is weight loss lol...

sorry its so,long lol... very sorry but i told it as quick as i coukld

Oh my goodness....I am so sorry that you've had such a terrible time with your baby girl's health! I cannot imagine how we'd make it through something so incredibly frightening. You are SO brave...and strong...and amazing!

That is an incredible amount of stress to deal with! Is she healthy today, now that you know what some of the problems are? I certainly hope so...my prayers are going out for her and your whole family :angel:

I had the exact same bathtub injury when I was three years old. My little leg was too short to reach the floor, and the track cut me down there, too :(
My Mom never let me get out of the tub by myself again until I was MUCH older! Now she does the same with my daughter, so I'm guessing it traumatized her pretty badly....poor Mommies!

I just wanted to send you some love and a great, big :hug:
Linda

yes lesh alot of things make her sick we dont eat out nor will i let anyone bring food into my house.. and no zoo for her at this stage even though my hubby is arguing with me abiut that one lol,,i said we can go on a cool day after it has rained and there is no wind only so there isnt a load of crap blowing around. We argued about that yesturday .. so i told him to just stand outsied of the local pet shop with her for 10 minutes and see how sick she gets... he refused thank goodness and didnt go to the zoo lol..

She is pretty good at the moment she was sick after christmas she was given gravy and it was chritmas so i let it slide and she got a rash on her face and butt and a guts ache for three days after. but we still enjoyed christmas lol.
Its kinda easy when you know what you atre dealing with but its is frightning and impossible when you dont.. It is scary how huch crap is in our food and alot of it is bad for asthma, behaviour, hypersensitivity, bad for children but put i kids food.. cause cancer or organ damage. its really awful when you find out the truth.. and i have found healthy and cheap alterantives for most things . the only one more expensive is the icecream. I feel better in my self knowing my food is clean of all crap lol...

Wow,You ladies sure have dealt with a whole mess of troubles, last night I was wallowing in my self pity thinking how hard it is taking care of things, and losing weight(i'm the only one working now) But now that I seen and read some of your stories I feel more fortunate,I'm really happy to hear that your daughter is doing fine! And to the lady with Ms, I'm happy that you are feeling better,and are controlling it now!That must be very hard to deal with.

So, Today I started out with the right mind frame...but ended with my stupidity telling me, It's just a small plate of spaghetti, it's just a few onion rings, one regular soda isn't going to do much....

I don't blame anyone, except myself. I could've ate the salad that I had planned on eating...But I didn't. Anyway..Thank you all very much for your inspiration.Tomorrow is a new day...hopefully better.Oh,and I NEED to go grocery shopping!