I figure this is a better time that later to come back in here! I see some familiar faces and some tickers I'm downright jealous of!
I've been MIA for awhile. Half a@@ attempts over the past 14 months haven't worked. Not going to waste to much time crying over the pounds I've gained back. It sucks though. It's all about what I do from today on. And today I got on the scale...it's been months... and while I cannot say I was totally shocked...I knew I'd resorted back to wearing my yoga pants and big tee shirts a few months ago...it was a loud wake up call. I'm at my all-time high weight EXACTLY. To the pound. It's taken 9 years to put it all back on. It's humbling. It's hard. It's good to feel this fight rising up inside of me again. I'm disgusted. And ready to do the right thing and do it over and over and over and over until I reach my goal. I have 2 little girls and they need me to be the best Mom I can be and it's not happening at this weight. It's good to be back and I look forward to getting much needed help and support and giving back in return.
I was tempted to go to another weight loss board because there is an element of not wanting to admit that I messed up so badly. How stupid! I even signed up for an account there an hour ago. Then I remembered that I got so much help here on 3FC and couldn't believe that I couldn't just come here and admit that I have many things to learn. First, how to make peace with food. And finally to experience what making a commitment to myself and sticking to it feels like.
It's good to be back.