I've been struggling for a good 6 months. I've been rollercoasting on the same 5 lbs. For the last couple months, it has been especially hard. I have felt like everything and anything anywhere near me should be eaten. I have avoided doing exercise for no good reason. Luckily, I didn't gain more than a couple lbs during this entire dillemma.
A couple days ago, things changed. I don't know how or what changed but they did. Last week, I started forcing myself to exercise no matter what. I have forced myself to really look at my portions and eating habits. The past couple days have been bliss of eating right and not thinking about food all the time. I've started to use our diet blogs here on 3fc to stay accontable with myself. I started thinking I could count calories but I'm not quite there yet.
I feel like this is a new me. I hope this new me doesn't go away because I like it. I like exercising every day. I like not feeling so full that I feel sick. I like not obsessing about food and what I can eat and when I can eat it.
I have goals I'd like to meet. I'd like to lose 20 lbs by July. It is ambitious but it is doable. I'd like to lose 40 lbs by September. Again it is ambitious but doable. By the end of the year, I'd like to be just above 200 or maybe even below 200. Again, very ambitious but I know I can achieve it if I keep on track. I think the new me has the drive to achieve these things and won't be deterred.