Wow, Lifeguard! You have had a unusually rough week! So glad to hear you're beating the battle with depression.
Went to my first swim class last evening. I almost chickened out because I was nervous about every one seeing "the big chick" and I knew I wouldnt be able to swim the laps like everyone else. I was very much the biggest person at a pool full of toned fit kids and adults. But, I forced myself to remove my clothing and get in the pool. Boy, am I out of shape! And, very rusty! I have to learn how to breathe all over again. They probably had to re-fill the pool when I left....I swallowed most of it!
I practiced kicks and strokes...and breathing...for an hour. At the end of the hour, I was extremely nauseous. I came home and went right to bed....no dinner and no American Idol or Survivor. I have a loooooooong way to go before I will be able to swim laps. My goal is 50 laps by the end of the year.