Do you ever sabotage yourself the closer you get to a milestone?
I am 9 pounds away from weighing 215. I haven't weighed less than 215 in just over three years so it is an important state/number for me. Then after that, the next goal will be 200, and then (the amazing) onederland, followed by a whole series of other milestones. I don't know why this is making me anxious. I've been losing weight faster than I've wanted to (about 2 lbs/wk- which I know is still healthy but I prefer 1 lb per week). And this hadn't really bothered me until now when, at this rate, I will reach 215 in 4-5 weeks! I should be thrilled and excited, but instead I feel uncertain - so I've been sabotaging myself. Part of it is that I am trying to slow down my weight loss to that 1 lb (I know, it probably sounds absolutely nuts to some people). But I don't quite understand why I feel anxious about getting down to that number? It will signify to me being much smaller and healthier than my 262 starting frame, so I should be ecstatic yet I feel nervous. Has anyone else experienced this?