The Girl Who Ate Angie

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Down hill May 14, 2009

Filed under: AND AWAY WE GO!!!! — angiemo3 @ 1:28 pm

I have fallen off my pedestal and started rolling down hill….no let me make that a mountain!!!!  I ate lunch with my husband on Tuesday, then with my friend on Wednesday.  Both days I made bad choices but today I put on my hiking boots and started trucking back to the top.

Not being able to weigh in on Mother’s Day at WW was not good for me.  I need to have a deadline to look forward to each week, and missing it made me feel like I had extra time.  Plus I have just had a miserable week on an emotional level.  I can be somewhat mentally unstable so to speak, and I have periods of being okay and then everything builds up until I explode.  Unfortunately that was yesterday and I am still not right but I am pushing forward.

I have a lot going on right now with my school, and Matthew’s school, and work.  If I could quit my job, be a full time mom, and still have enough money to move out of this horrible neighborhood I would be okay.  I feel like a failure right now and it is making self loathing easier and caring about my weight harder.  If I can make it through the rest of the day on my plan I should be okay for the weekend.  I hope to have lost at least a pound or 2 more by WI Saturday.

later that night…

I still do not feel good. I am emotionally spent I think and since I am an emotional eater that does not help me in the least.  We went out to eat at a buffet  even though I knew I shouldn’t.  I do not think I did too bad though and tomorrow is a new day and hopefully full of promise.  For some reason I am depressed….I am not sure why, but I feel like it has to do with all the struggles I have had lately.  My classes start Monday and I have one Monday and one Tuesday night, so I will have two days a week that are free to spend with the kids over the summer.  Matthew is getting out of school next Friday so I will have 4 kids on my days off.  I hope we can do something fun.

My goal for tomorrow is to stay on plan so I am going to plan a menu tonight to help with my points.