Is this time different?

In maintenance since June 1, 2012


Too weak or too old?

So I started to train seriously to run my 4k, but on my second day (with one rest day in between) I did not even get to run 3k. And I used to run 7k with no great effort! So what is it?

It is the first time that I train and diet (1200 cals) at the same time, so maybe it’s that?

I am 48 and started to run at 47, so maybe it’s that?

I had not drunk water before I started, and my belly was a bit “distressed” from eating chick peas and a lot of fruit. My blood pressure went down a little during the run because of that… Maybe it was that too?

So discouraged!

I will up my calories a little and take two days to rest between runs, and I will have to take up the gym, which I hate, to tone my upper body. That sucks! But I want to run those 4k, because I started to run on June 4 last year, so this race would be my “running birthday”. Hope I can make it and not get in last!

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By susana
On May 12, 2013
At 10:53 pm
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Vegetable pie… but too much!

I had some crackers for breakfast, and for lunch 3 slices of vegetable pie. They were one too many, as my stomach seems to shout in its bloating. I am a bit stressed because this is going to be a hard work week, so that may have been the reason for the extra slice. Bad.

But on the flip side, yesterday I went to see a Portuguese movie I liked a lot, and I went on my own. I had some extra time to window shop for furniture and knick knacks, so I really enjoyed myself. As I was standing at a shop window I overheard a couple discussing furniture. She was preassuring him to buy something to start organizing their home, and the poor guy was trying to postpone things… It is good to be alone, if dating means that…

That’s all for now!

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By susana
On May 6, 2013
At 10:49 am
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A nice visit

Today my son and my daughter in law came to town and I made a chicken dish they loved. I ate too, though it contained corn and cream. Then I had a scoop of icecream, and that was it. I could control myself and did not overeat… They brought cake as a gift, and it is still there, untouched!

Tomorrow I will run my 3 miles, and then work, and then see if I can catch a concert in town. I am quite happy about these days, in spite of the workload. I feel calmer now that I know I can order my eating… Hope you are all doing well too!

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By susana
On May 4, 2013
At 9:16 pm
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What a reward!

I have been trying to reorder my eating and I have lost 4 pounds in a week. I did not expect this sudden loss, so I feel really rewarded! I introduced only small changes so far:

No sweets.

Eat only when hungry.

Not eating sweet things has already changed what I crave for. As we tend to crave for what we generally eat, I started to think of fruit rather than of sweets and other junk like that.I just need to make sure there is a store of healthy food at home.

As to being hungry, in my system it is related to a small rumble, a small discomfort. If I am eating little fat, that is way before growing dizzy or weak. It is just the symptom of an empty stomach… I like “constructing hunger” in this way because it makes it depend on a physical sensation and allows me to grow conscious of my body, binding eating to the body and not to emotions.

I am not cutting on anyhing else for now. If not eating junk and eating only when hungry makes me lose, that is more than enough! I need energy to go on training, so I can eat a bit of everything –even pizza and fries– as long as I don’t eat for emotional reasons.

I remember now that these two determinations (no junk, no emotional eating) were the first I made a year and a half ago, when I started to lose and lost around 20 pounds. I think it is a good idea to modify behavior slowly not to feel deprived… What do you think?

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By susana
On May 3, 2013
At 4:39 am
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What is to be hungry?

I have just read this question in one of the forums, and as someone else answered it, I just pondered about it. I am still pondering…

Is it feeling dizzy, is it a rumble in the stomach, is it meal time? How out of contact with our bodies we are! Right now it is meal time, I know I could eat if I had cooked something, but I am interested in this post that I could also wait for another hour to eat. If I had not been reading that forum, I would probably had eaten earlier… Was I hungry earlier? Not as much as now!

So, is keeping busy the key to eating when we are really hungry? Is boredom such an enemy to us, disordered eating people? I will keep pondering!

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By susana
On May 2, 2013
At 7:45 am
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Almost a year ago…

If you read the post I published almost a year ago, you will see I was starting to maintain and to jog. After that my internet connection got busted and I tried to continue my program without writing here.

Lots of things happened: I went on training, and now I can jog for more than an hour. I love doing it! It was hard and I never thought I would make it –I started jogging at 47, and I am 48 now–, but here I am, running about 6k twice a week.

That allowed me to keep most of my weight off –regained a little–, but I am not eating as well as last year. Yesterday my internet connection was finally fixed for good and here I am again, trying to go back to better habits. I need to regain control over emotional eating, for example, and to make sure I don’t binge.

I got used to being thinner and love it, but I think that being in control is much better than being thin.

My new goals:

Fight emotional eating and bingeing.

Lose the little weight I put on in the past year. I would like to weigh 50 kg on June 1.

Run 10k.

I was about to write “Wish me luck!”, but I prefer this: “Wish me willpower!”

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By susana
On May 1, 2013
At 8:28 am
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