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In maintenance since June 1, 2012


On sleep paralysis and somniphobia

So many things start to get the importance they deserve, now that healthy food is becoming a habit! My diet plan is getting to be part of my life, and having left behind that long plateau –low voice: I think I lost another kilo… shhh!– , I somehow naturally started to “control” other aspects of my life.

As I am going back to work today, before going to sleep yesterday –or not to go to sleep… see below– I scheduled my day, and I found myself hesitating at the moment of deciding when my day finished. This is because since my divorce I find it very hard to turn off the light and go to sleep: I stay up watching television –or scheduling the following day– for hours until I collapse, but don’t drift naturally into sleep as most people. So I ran a google search and I discovered that my symptoms are very much in keeping with (a slight, I guess) somnophobia. I used to have (while married, not later) also sleep paralysis, a horrible experience. So I thought that if I can cope with my food issues, I can very well try to cope with me sleep issues…

I am reading into this fear of sleep phenomenon and I will try to go to sleep quietly tonight. Just thinking about it makes me afraid, but I will try. I’ll tell you tomorrow!

Foodwise, everything ok. I eat around 1200 calories (remember I am short), choose food which is low in carbs, walk regularly, and started to lose again after the plateau. In a way, dieting has become a habit, so it is no news now! haha! Hope you are all doing well!

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By susana
On February 6, 2012
At 5:17 am
Comments : 4

4 Comments for this post

journey2skinny Says:

I just wanted to say I’ve had episodes similar to the one you described, like I was afraid of falling asleep because I feel like I might die of a heart attack or something. I didn’t think anyone else was having somewhat the same experience.

I thought maybe it’s a form of anxiety about school, which at that time I was experience a huge amount of stress. I started drinking chamomille tea and designated a “relax time” an hour before sleep, which I won’t think of anything else but relaxing.. sure enough it helped a bit.

I wish you well and hope find some resolution with your sleep issues.

You are a continued inspiration to all of us! Keep up the good work 🙂

susana Says:

Hi Journey! I never tought it would be a disorder, but when I entered “fear of going to sleep” in the search engine I discovered it is. I also learned about sleep paralysis, which I used to suffer from too. Both are classed as anxiety disorders. As the food was my major problem, I never paid attention to this, but now that I am eating well, I go for more! Eat well, sleep tight!

dysfunctionalbarbie Says:

It’s amazing when we go through one transformation when dealing with our health we tend to look at all the other aspects of our life too that we need to worry about or fix which we never really did before.

I don’t know how you guys do it (I guess it’s not an on purpose thing) but I love my sleep…maybe a little too much sometimes hehe.

You’ll get through this, now you know it’s a disorder and you figured out what sort of caused it, you’ll soon be on your way to a wonderful sleepfilled night!

triinukene Says:

Hi, susana! Congratulations for having started dealing with the sleep issues – resting tends to have a huge impact on fat gain/loss. I used to have lots of problems with sleeping from highschool to the end of university (which makes 10 years). Eventually I was so scared to go to sleep, because I knew I would be battling with insomnia for at least 3-4 hours every night if not all night. It’s a horrible feeling, being scared of going to sleep. Now, in the contrary, I sleep like a baby and I can see the positive influence it has in every aspect of my life.

How I got rid of the sleeping problems? It sounds like a cliche, because it probably is a cliche, but I packed my backpack and went to India for 2 months to find myself in October 2010. Since I was alone, mostly in the Himalayas, I couldn’t really wonder about in the dark. There was nowhere else to stay apart from my 2$ (the cheapest and dirtiest around) hotel rooms and the sun went down at 6pm on the dot every night… You can imagine the hours and days and weeks and months that I spent staring at the ceiling of a dark room, thinking dark thoughts, daydreaming, just trying to weight out the night. Often there wouldn’t be electricity, so I couldn’t even read and I also got the point where I had to ration my books, because I knew that I wouldn’t be out from the mountains for a week to buy new. It was hard, very hard, but only up the point when I realized that:
1) if I can’t fall asleep then my body doesn’t need sleep
2) since there’s nothing better to do, I just have to lie down and wait for the morning to come (often I would find a way to the hotel roof and watch the starts for a few hours until I got bored or too cold)
3) fighting against the facts I can’t change (such as sunset at 6pm and an environment where I simply can’t go walking around at night) is only going to get me mad, less sleepy and more stressed

After I had realized that the night is not for sleeping if I don’t need to sleep, I was content to sleep every other night and stare at the ceiling of the dark room the rest of the time, I haven’t got any more insomnia.

Just accept the facts and go with the flow.

I hope it helps.


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