From self-inflicted insomnia to weight loss

My week started off great and then I got trolled (what I think is) quite bad. I’m just posting so this blog doesn’t get deleted (I know it won’t yet).

I lost another kg and my focus has lifted to get to my goal weight of 60 by my birthday in the first week of September. My partner found an interesting site that I poked around in a bit and found a BMR and TCEE calculator to see how many calories I should be having per day. Quite interesting to know my BMR is 1298 calories minimum per day and 2600-odd maximum (before I start gaining weight). I wonder how many people are going too low for their own BMR and TCEE…. Anyway, here’s the link:

BTW, I’m super tired too from an early start to uni this morning and an excellent writing session that took me into the 6 a.m. in the morning (hence the great mood). But, as usual, people screw it up by giving insulting comments and telling me I’m WRONG without giving their own solutions. Sigh.

April 12th, 2013 at 12:24 am | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

Low and behold, I think I have finally figured out how to beat my sleep problems.

During the Easter weekend just gone, I had an almost 7 day break from classes at uni (because we had Tuesday off AND my full day off was on Wednesday!) and so my bad sleeping habit crept back up on me. I thought it was a great idea, until Wednesday night came and I found myself WIDE AWAKE at 7 am Thursday morning. My class was to start at 12pm and so I decided to get up and work on my English assignment. At 8am I’d had enough and went back to bed where I slept from 9-11.40 a.m.!! I was late to class. A similar thing happened Thursday night/Friday morning: my class was at 1pm and I slept from 6.30-12.45 🙁

While I was lying frustrated with my inability to sleep (not even my herbal sleeping pills we working!), I switched on the Wi-fi on my phone and went in search of an app. I found one: Sleep as Android. Not only does it play a nature sound to relax me, the nature sound (lullaby) fades out after a set time, and, the best bit, it plays an alarm from 30 mins before I want to wake up (customised setting) and I have set it to make me SHAKE my phone to a counter. The alarm won’t turn off until I stop that counter. Brilliant. I tried it this morning, even though one of the cats woke me up ONE MINUTE before the alarm time :-/ I didn’t fall back to sleep. I’m sticking to the 14 day trial for now, but I’ll probably just buy it anyway.

Right now I’m just wasting time until midnight so I can go to bed. I still don’t like going to bed early, but because my sleep is affecting my university I have to change it. I hate early nights lol

April 6th, 2013 at 11:38 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

Well, I’ve managed to stay within 74 kgs and came in at 74.6 kgs! That means in 3 months I have lost 6.2 kgs 🙂 Not bad, not bad at all. My target was 6kgs and I made it! How do I feel? So-so. I feel that I should be losing more because others are losing faster than I am, but at the same time this is the best I’ve ever done. The last time I lost weight on purpose, it took me 2 years to lose 10 kgs LOL :/ Kind of puts things into perspective.

I had a sleepless night last night. Zero sleep until 9am until 11am because I had to get up for my university lecture. I must have looked a miserable sight to the lecturer lol I came home at 2 and slept until 4.30-ish, which enabled me to be awake enough to finish my assignment in record time! It was the mother of all questions too and it took me 2 hours or more to decipher this extract and then apply its meaning to a poem:

“The author is the principle of thrift in the proliferation of meaning….a certain functional principle by which, in our culture, one limits, excludes, and chooses; in short by which one impedes the free circulation, the free manipulation, the free composition, decomposition, and recomposition of fiction and poetry” (Foucault, What is an Author?, p. 118-119).

I’m so glad that’s over with! Although, in saying that, I enjoyed it because I want to be a published author one day and it’s good to know just how my readers will accept my work. (With open arms and warm smiles uttering infinite praise! Yeah right!) At least I can begin to understand why Twilight has come under such scrutiny. Sigh. It’s only a story meant to entertain, which is what it has done for me 🙂

Oh well, time to get back on track with my weight loss. I should have an easier time of it now it’s coming into autumn. It won’t be so hot outside so I can keep to my exercise plan! Must be all my years of playing soccer in the cold and the rain that has conditioned me to enjoy running around in it more?

April 5th, 2013 at 1:15 am | Comments & Trackbacks (2) | Permalink

My 3 month weigh-in is only a couple days away now. I look forward with a heavy heart, not because of the weight I’ve lost but because of the weight I should have gained. I kind of feel guilty for having lost the 6kgs (or thereabouts) in the past 3 months because March has been a bad month for me. I’ve let myself go a little in the way of discipline during the weddings and the dinner I’ve been to and I feel that I’ve not been given the proper rebuke by my body. Albeit, my weight loss may be on account of the extra running laps I did in grim determination to get to my goal just that little bit faster, which has had negative consequences by way of a visit to the doctor for overdoing it. (Sorry for my formal-sounding writing. I get like this when I’m tired!)

Nevertheless, I’m on my target of losing 2 kgs per month to get down to my 74 kg goal this weigh-in. Some of you might think that 2 kgs (4lbs) is not much in the long run, but there are some things in my diet that I’m not willing to give up, such as my salad dressings because I hate vegetables. I’ve been a bit lazy too. Ahem. I am a bit lazy too and I only dedicate 30 minutes to exercising because my first exercise goal is to be able to run for 30 mins without stopping. And then my goal will be to train up to participate in a local marathon or a fun run. I need to have the goal otherwise it will all seem pointless to me, even though it may seem that weight loss is enough. I need more than that.

In any case, it’s been great watching my body slim up. Seeing the fat slip away from my thighs, arms and back has been liberating. I just wish my stomach would catch up! It all seems to be hanging around my mid-section, which is the area I want to lose it from the most! I might have to invest some extra time in doing stomach crunches to tighten it up. I must admit that I did think running would tone all of my muscles because I’m using all of my muscles to move forward. It feels like I’m using all my muscles anyway!

The real problem I need to work on is my sleeping habit. I’m a serial night owl who goes to university during the day/morning. So, I only get 6-7 hours sleep, or less depending on my morning start times. I’m sure it has something to do with my slow weight loss (my PCOS doesn’t help either), but I really hate going to bed. I just feel that there is so much more I could be doing instead of sleeping and that there aren’t enough hours in the day to do the things I want. This feeling has plagued me for years by first keeping me up until 2am at the latest, now I can do all-nighters if I really want to. Though, mostly I just stay up until 5am or 7. It’s really bad, but how do I see? A hypnotist? A therapist? I have herbal sleeping pills, but I can’t rely on those and I know that my lack of sleep is bad in the long run….

Anyway, I promise I’ll try and post some positive blogs in the future. Positivity has never been one of my strong suits, but I will do my best!

April 3rd, 2013 at 2:31 am | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

I don’t know if I’m the only one, but I tend to do nothing when it’s my TOTM. Well, rather than hold my breath for X amount of seconds as the pain doubles me over (I used to be reduced to my knees, so thank goodness it’s gotten better as I’m getting older!) and trying to get through my day eating something, since I tend not to feel my hunger pangs. I don’t know how anyone else can manage exercising, though, I AM the queen of excuses. I wrote that book and I recite it often enough. Typically, since it’s the middle of Autumn, my excuse is that it’s sunny and too hot. I did grow up playing soccer in the winter and then went dormant over the summer time, and I’m not particularly fond of the sun because I get sunburnt… Did I mention I wrote the book of excuses!?

The good news is, my TOTM (and pain) only lasts 3 days meaning I can still get in 3-4 days of exercise a week. Once I’m able to start up again, I’ll go out and have a good bash at my exercise.

You may notice that my posts is published at 3am. Yes, I am still awake at 3am. This is typical of my day and I usually get to bed around now and get up around midday. Sure, it has it’s downside, but the night is quiet and no one expects me to do anything so I can keep my own space. I should be writing my novel, but I’ve been avoiding it for some reason… I almost got back to it today, twice, but something always disrupted me. So I watched Superman Returns instead. Brandon Routh is a sexy man in that movie. I wonder how Henry Cavell will do in the new Superman movie Man of Steel. If you have seen it, if it’s out?, don’t tell me anything. I want to experience the movie and form my own opinion first 🙂

Anyway. My weight is coming down nicely and I should be down to 74 kgs for my 3 monthly weigh in, giving me a total of 6kgs (13lbs) in 3 months. It’s kind of slow, I know, but it’s the best I can do with the knowledge I have. I’ll be happy if I can lose 3 kgs a month, but 2 is fine. I’m hoping to reach my goal of weighing 60kgs by September for my b’day and then, if I can keep it up, to be 55 or less (with a flat tummy) by Jan next year. Hopefully my determination will convince the fertility people that they should let me have twins lol I can only hope and keep pushing myself!

March 31st, 2013 at 3:23 am | Comments & Trackbacks (2) | Permalink

I haven’t forgotten about this blog! I thought that I would put some distance between posts, otherwise I’ll just be writing my thoughts lol

I went to a wedding over the weekend at a flash golf resort. Aside from the burning sun and the bee’s that hung around during the ceremony, the wedding was awesome! I was, however, still recovering from my cold so I had to take extra med’s to quell my cough during the important parts of the evening.

I’m coming to love weddings and all the emotion that goes with them. I especially love it when the groom tears up to show just how much he loves his new wife. It almost makes me believe in the whole marriage system that true love does exist and couple will stay married, just as they promise to!

I tried not to cheat on my weight loss, but I ordered dessert: a berry cheesecake. The taste wasn’t that great and the small entrée and main allowed me to cheat a bit. I love the way the tables were named after models of the Mazda car. I sat at the Renesis table, between Eunos and Capella 🙂 I also love weddings with car crazy couples because of the way they show off their cars. I love cars 🙂

So yeah, even though I cheated I didn’t gain any weight. In fact, I believe I have lost more. I have an app that tracks my weight loss and I think I’ve found a pattern. I’m in the weight loss phase!

March 27th, 2013 at 12:58 am | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink

Well, this will teach me for overworking myself in my exercise, coupled with my inability to get to bed at a reasonable time (typically bed time for me is 5 a.m. and waking at 10 or 11 a.m.). Oddly enough, perhaps due to my 11 hour sleep, the scales showed I’ve lost 300 grams in the past 2 days. That means I’m now 74.7 kgs!

I also had a debate today about Twilight. Mostly it was ‘Twilight sucks because of the way it portrayed vampires’. Really? That’s the best people have? Have people considered that maybe some people don’t like seeing the same old when it comes to vampires. Actually, do they know HOW the vampire came to be?

Over the past 3 or more years, I’ve not heard any real evidence to why Twilight sucks. I dislike Harry Potter, but I don’t force my views onto other people or degrade it. As I said to those I argued with: my opinion of Twilight will never change, not matter what anyone else says.

Anyway, that’s my moan for the day 🙂

March 22nd, 2013 at 3:51 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (2) | Permalink

Hello, my name is Rhiannon and I live in New Zealand (and I currently have a cold!). I’m currently at university studying a Bachelor of Arts. I’m doing a double major in Writing Studies, specialising in Creative Writing, and [General] Linguistics. I’ve never written a blog before and I’m not sure if it’s more than sharing my thoughts and feelings about certain areas of my life. In any case, this is how I will start, sharing myself with you, the reader, and I’ll go from there.

Where to begin? Since the end of last year I have been on a mission to lose weight. Yes, it’s a a mission; an objective that I must complete for the benefit of all. Last year I reached my heaviest weight of 90kgs (well 89, but I like to round to the nearest 5) and I was miserable. I had already made a promise to myself that I would never allow myself to get to 100kgs (and all that implies).

I’m not yet comfortable enough to share the reasons why I have made it my mission to lose weight, aside from the most obvious that I will look and feel great once I do. Nevertheless, I am committed and I plan to reach my goal of a flat stomach by the end of the year! Whether they like it or not, I am going to employ the help of the lovely women and men on the 3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community to get to my goal. So far, the help has been superb from the advice I received and the advice I have given –which has made me realise just how much I’ve learned about weight loss and how far I still have to go.

Of course, most of the assistance for my weight loss will, and has, come from my partner who has already done so much! If not for him, I wouldn’t have vegetables or salad on my plate at dinner time nor would I have challenged myself during my exercise (we won’t tell him about the latter!)

Since New Years, I have lost 4 kgs of weight but I have gained so much confidence and willpower. Not to mention, that I can now fit into my favourite pair of shorts again!

P.S. the dashes in between my paragraphs are line breaks. I don’t like my paragraphs bunched together! 🙂

March 20th, 2013 at 4:09 pm | Comments & Trackbacks (0) | Permalink