I made a commitment to get back in the swing of things.  I need some goals to help me get back on track.  It’s just so hard to get started.  I need to look at what’s messing me up and deal with it.

One of the most difficult things to deal with is the evenings.  I’ve fallen into the habit of watching TV all evening and snacking.  I don’t eat much during the day but then I eat dinner and keep eating until I go to bed.  I’d like to do something else in the evenings but the truth of the matter is that I’m pretty well worn out and don’t have the energy to move.  Gotta work on that.  Maybe I could try doing some chores that don’t require a lot of energy to keep me occupied.

Little sister wanted me to join her in a yard sale.  Really, I hate yard sales.  People don’t want to pay for anything.  They just want you to give it away.  I loaded up a bunch of clothes that don’t fit anymore and priced them very cheap.  A jacket that I paid $70 for, wore three times and I priced it at $10.  People were trying to get me to take $3.00.  A $60 pair of slacks worn once, priced at $7.00 and they wanted me to sell them for $3.00.  NOT.  I really didn’t want to sell my clothes anyway and it got me thinking.  Here  I have literally thousands of dollars worth of clothes that don’t fit and I’m wearing the same old ratty outfits day after day because I won’t spend money for clothes when I’m this fat.  Why bother?  I’m going to look like crap anyway. So I pulled all my clothes from the yard sale and I’m keeping them.  And I WILL wear them again.

So I’ve been talking to myself and trying to get back where I belong.  Riding my bike a little bit.  Eating a little better.

I’ve got a cruise coming up in November and I’d love to feel better and look better by then.  So I think it’s time to set some goals and develop a plan.  I have 4 months until the cruise.  I’d like to lose 40 pounds by then.  I still won’t be anywhere near my ideal weight but I know I’ll feel better and might even be motivated to buy some decent clothes.

This morning, I weighed in at 219.  Good Grief!  HOW did I let this happen?  I have 20 weeks until we take the cruise.  My plan is to lose 2 pounds per week.  At least, that’s my goal.

So how do I accomplish it?  I know how.  I know what I need to do but I always let things get in the way.  I need to eat healthy, blog, and work out. And I’ve got to quit avoiding the scales.  Time to be accountable.

So far, today, I’ve weighed in, worked in the garden for two hours (all that sweating must have helped at least a little bit) ridden my bicycle and eaten a fresh salad for lunch.  Used bibb lettuce, cucumbers, zucchini and cherry tomatoes all from my own garden and topped my salad with lite dressing.  Now I’m going to clean the pool so I can start jogging in it.  I was just getting to the point of jogging when the weather turned nasty and it’s been raining for the past week.  The temperature dropped way down and I know it’s going to be cold.

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