Still not smoking.  That’s good.  Still eating too much.  That’s bad.

I know the smoking is a lot more important than the diet right now but I’m not going to let it completely derail me.  I’m going to do what I have to do today but I’m also going to write down everything I eat.  Maybe just keeping track of it will help me get under control.  I’ve already done 30 minutes of jogging in the pool.  That’s good.

For starters, I’ve had a ham sandwich this morning and a LOT of black coffee.  Only used one slice of bread on the sandwich and two slices of 97% lean ham so I guess that comes in at about 120 calories.  I know…you’re wondering why I’m concerned about that.  It’s because I know a lot more is going to be piled on before the day is over.

Weight is at 200 today.  Still.  Maybe I won’t weigh myself for a few days.  I think I’d get depressed if I saw it go up even more.

Yesterday was Scout’s birthday.  DIL called DS and said she wanted us to all “get together for his birthday…both families just having a good time and celebrating his birthday.”  She thought that would be nice.  You’re kidding, right?  After all we’ve been through?  I don’t think so.  I told DS he could do whatever he wanted and tell her whatever he wanted but I wasn’t going to “get together with Stacy and her family and smile and laugh like everything is just hunky dory.  Not even for Scout’s birthday.”  I’m sorry.  That just isn’t going to happen.  Evidently, her family felt the same way because it turned out to be just DS, Stacy and the boys.  He said it felt really awkward and he struggled to get through it.  They went to Dairy Queen where he had an ice cream cake and lots of presents. 

I don’t know why she thinks she can lie and sabotage us to her family (which I’m sure she did) and lie and make her own family out to be total psychos to us (which she’s also done) and then expect everyone to get together.  At any rate, 30 minutes after DS got home, she called him and said she had a big blowout with her mother and her mother kicked her and the boys out of the house.  She wanted to bring the boys over here and have DS keep them “until she can figure out what she needs to do”.

I don’t know what’s going on.  DS says her mother is just as crazy as she is.  I’m not sure that’s true but even Jake and Scout said she called them “Stacy’s brats” and told them she doesn’t think of them as her grandchildren.  They had to grab what they could and hit the door.  The boys didn’t even bring a change of clothes with them.  (Scout got his priorities together, though.  Managed to bring all his birthday presents.)

It’s still amazing to me that we’re in this predicament because she managed to convince the courts that DS is the problem and got custody of the boys in order to shield them from the constant fighting.  And of course, no one knows that she’s lived with four different people in the last year and gotten kicked out of each place after having a big fight.  Wonder what today will bring.  It wouldn’t surprise me if she wanted to move back into DS’s because his tenants just moved out.  Wonder if he told her that?

2:33 Update – Lunchtime!  I had a large homegrown tomato (40 calories), fresh basil (0), 1 tsp. Olive oil (40), skim milk mozzarella (100).  So I guess lunch has 180 calories.  That’s 300 so far.  Not bad, but the evening looms like a big vacuum.

BTW, Brandie, all your tips are good! 

4:30 – big slice of fresh pineapple (100) brings us to 400 so far.

7:00 – Just finished dinner.  Stir fry mandarin beef….(I’m going to guess 300), rice (300), sauteed green beans (100) .  Guess we’re hovering around 1100.  That gives me a little wiggle room.  I think it’s really helped to write everything down today.  Still…it’s 4 more hours till bedtime.  Guess I’ll go on Yoville and decorate my house.  That keeps me occupied.


iniya says 31st July @ 19:48

You go girl! Not smoking, staying within calories, exercising – very well done indeed.

delitaagain says 1st August @ 13:54

Hey congrats on the smoking… et al! Weigh to go, woman!!

brseay says 2nd August @ 11:50

Not smoking w/all of the chaos in your house is a huge accomplishment, I hope you realize that.

And good for you for not playing nice and getting together w/the whole family. At some point Stacy and your son need to realize that their actions have consequences.

Maybe returning to school will bring some calm to your life????

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