Change is Gonna Come

Finally broke down and weighed myself. 166.5. Lucky me, with all the crap I’ve been eating lately. Today is going to have to include some real thinking and planning. I’m not sure why I’m eating in the evenings lately but I’ve got to stop. Not really eating in the evenings…more like bingeing. I did great yesterday and then DH decided to fix spring rolls for dinner. This is a recipe I’ve had for more than 30 years that was given to me by a Phillipino friend when we lived in Okinawa. It’s made with ground beef, homemade wrappers consisting of flour, egg, and water, and then deep-fried. I don’t make them anymore because they’re a lot of work, a lot of mess, and a lot of fat and calories. The entire house will smell like garlic, onions, and grease for the next two days. Of course, DH is not concerned. “You don’t have to do anything. I’ll make them and I’ll clean up the mess. You can eat a Lean Cuisine for dinner.” That’s true…I could have eaten a lean cuisine but how’s that going to happen when those juicy little rolls are piling up on the platter and the entire house smells like spring rolls? So I had to eat one. Just one…and then just one more…until I ate 5 of them and didn’t have any calories left for anything else. So then, I’m in a pickle. They didn’t fill me up but I have no calories left for the day. So…I finished off the watermelon and went to bed. Didn’t get much sleep because I had reflux all night until I finally got sick about 4:00 a.m. When will I learn that I can’t eat that kind of greasy crap? When will he learn to stop cooking and eating that kind of greasy crap? Ahhh…today’s another day…

Finally found a picture from yet another trip to Hawaii in 1999. I used to keep a journal and I found the picture inside it. In the journal, I’m talking about how I’ve torn all these ligaments and tendons in my ankles and am having so much pain but am trying to put off the surgery as long as I can. The picture is definitely showing a much more “robust” Sistah Pat. The dress is loose and billowy but there’s definitely a big butt under there. I think I’m slimmer now. It’s hard to tell. I know I put on a lot more weight after the picture was taken. Wonder if little sister realizes how much turmoil she caused by asking me to go through all these pictures this week? I guess I could call this week The Journey from Fit to Fat and the Road Back. I’m on the road…still have a long way to go. At least my hair is back 😉

12:00 – I found the Jane Fonda Complete Workout tape. I spent the last hour and a half watching it. Does that count as a workout? No? Sheesh… You guys are tough. I don’t see any reason that I can’t do it. I’m getting concerned about the constant backache and think the strength building exercises will help with that but I sure do see a lot of aches and pains in the near future. I remember hopping around all over the family room doing this workout years ago. I never paid any attention to the fact that half the group on the tape were doing a lower impact version. I should be able to do that. Maybe I can do the low impact side and gradually add some of the movements in high impact. I noticed that there are a lot of quick turns and moves on the ankles. Don’t know if I can do that but I won’t know till I try. Maybe in a few minutes. Not sure I want to know how bad it is…

9:45 – Yeah, it was bad. The upper body workout was okay but I can’t use my 3 and 5 pound weights for it. I’m going to have to get some 2 pound weights and do it with 2 and 3 pound weights for a while. I noticed that my neck and shoulders felt the strain. Really need to work on it.

The aerobics were a different story. I had a hard time following it, even doing low impact, because it’s so fast paced. Some of it was familiar but I’ll have to do it a few more times to get it right. Anyway…I did it.


tjnorth says 21st September @ 11:55

Pictorial history, ugh. I know how you feel, I have been secretly purging the worst ones from the collections of friends and family for years.

brseay says 21st September @ 12:50

Have you considered going to the doctor about your back? Maybe there is something more going on (kind of like when you were putting off surgery w/your ankles???) and I would hate to see you sidelined for a long time again.

You’re completely right about men being abused as well. Women at least have public support, men are often ridculed for talking about their situation. I hope that she is able to get and remain stable for the sake of everyone in your family.

round says 21st September @ 14:24

Patty, thanks for the reminder post on my blog — I am actually doing okay just have gotten out of the habit of posting (and I got an iPhone which is great for surfing but I can’t write a new post on it because of the way 3FC configured the blogs – frustrating!)

I was laughing when I read your comment about “counting” watching the Jane Fonda video – I physically went into a gym two times this week and I think I should get credit for that too (even though I didn’t exercise, I did show some INTEREST in exercising so it should count for something…)

anngirl says 21st September @ 21:05

You’re lucky I wasn’t anywhere within SNIFFING distance of your lumpia fest going on hon – because my ass would have eaten ALL of those yummies and the both of you would have ended up with the goddamn lean cuisines 😉

Dang, 166 – I look good at that weight….


ok, I’ll think on that while I have a piece of pizza.

Joy says 22nd September @ 6:38

Good for you doing the Jane Fonda workout. I still have to find a workout DVD. I have not started looking yet.
I think brseay is right, maybe if your back is bothering you still you should think about seeing a doctor . You know make sure it is not something that will get worse if left??
Those ROLLS sounded so good. That has to be hard having DH cook yummy stuff like that.
Do you go back to school today? If so have a nice day at school. If not have a wonderful day at home.

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