Not a FAT girl forever

The time has now come to DO IT!

New thinking… April 30, 2013

Filed under: Getting Motivated again,normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 1:56 am

Ok. So it has been abit more than a week since I have posted, but I am back, and I have joined a new thread at the forums “Fat Camp”

I have also realized that I am just over thinking and over analyzing and trying TOO hard.
I have to take it easy and allow myself to embrace this new lifestyle instead of drilling myself to the point where I feel I want to break down and give up.

So many people have done this…why cant I?

YES, I do have an addiction to food.
YES, It does make me feel better when I am anxious or bored or stressed.
YES, I do associate food with love ( i invite people over to cook for them….Its like me showing them I love them)

So I am going to work on the following:

  • I am going to try a worry less about food
  • Instead of eating when I feel these emotions I will do something else like phone a friend, get up and take a walk in the garden, blog
  • I am going to focus on eating better again and focus on saying no to the “bad stuff”
  • I am going to make sure I drink enough water…..winter sucks, but NO EXCUSES
  • I will do at least an hour workout everyday (P90X, Taebo, Zumba)
  • If I am really tired, I will atleast go for a 30min walk
  • I will focus more on what I need and less on what other people say…this is my struggle…not theirs


Oh Monday! April 22, 2013

Filed under: normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 3:41 am

I am just really NOT feeling this Monday! I am starting to get the flu and I have so much stuff to do, but I just really could not be bothered.

Last week I was mostly good regarding my food…I did have a few slip ups here and ther, and I had my TOM so I was just like  “whatever” I didnt workout too much last week…well basically all I did was…my Taebo on monday and then squats for the rest of the week…I was just so tired. But now that im getting sick I hope to still do some kind of workout. Does anyone have any idea as to what I can do even if im sick?

I lost (after the TOM stopped) another 0.5kg, which probly would have been more if I just didnt eat some of the crap that I did, and if I worked out a little more….damn I irritate myself when I am like that!

I dont have much head is in a funk with all this grossness in my nose and stuff ( grossss)

I hope you all have an awesome week…I will be reading but I might not be posting.


Lack of….. April 17, 2013

Filed under: Recipes — tryingbeauty @ 11:11 pm

….. Motivation, Energy, Spirit…..

I was feeling ready to go yesterday…I did my squates for the squate challenge. I planned my workout for the evening, but when I got home I was so tired…I thought I would just lie on my bed for 2 mins and check my phone for messages….I fell asleep!!

I didnt sleep for too lang as i then did get a message on my fone and my friend stopped by my place real quick, and I thought – ok, now I must get on my gym clothes and get to sweating- I just coudnt.
I went and I put on the sauna and I ended up sweating in there, which I know does not really burn any calories, I was just so damn tired.

Then dinner had to be made….. I was like *#%&*$#@ NO!  I am not making dinner…..I ended up having an egg sandwhich….. I went to bed rather early and I slept like I was never going to wake up till this morning…I think I am starting to get sick…My sister was very sick last week and I think she might have given her nasty viruses to me! Other wise its a sinus attack…..Oh how I hate the changing of the seasons!

So today I will definatly do my squates again…Day2 = 55 squates.
I will definatly try to do my workout this afternoon…I cannot lie down and not do it! I MUST SWEAT!!!

Hope you have a wonderful day ladies.!


Squat Challenge

Filed under: normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 4:02 am

Firstly I would like to send my condolences to everyone in Boston. Everyone who was affected by the terrible acts of people who have no soul. My prayers are with you.

I was snooping around on the Forum and saw a 30 Day Squat Challenge (thank you BootylisiousB)
It got me thinking that surely these little squates cannot be stronger than me….sooooo I accepted!!!

Today was the first day that I did them- 50 squates. It went well and I can feel them working. My knees didnt give me any problems which I am happy about.
I also involved the girls at work, and added a little motivator ( money) at the end to keep us going. The one girl was very cocky in saying that this is nothing and she jogs every day….she then took the longest to do her 50 and was the one complaining the most after.

Im excited about this challenge…day 30 is 250 squates (ok that might scare me!)

I was bad yesterday (tuesday) I didnt work out after work and I also didnt eat right as my friend said we should go out for dinner…damn delicious pork ribs and onion rings!

And today I cannot stop thinking about food!!!!  Im at my PC and thinking…hmmmmmm what is in the fridge…hmm is it not time for lunch yet…hmmmm what can i stuff in my mouth….. its driving me insane… I am trying to fill those hmmmms with water and green tea….my body has taken over my mind!!!!

I only have to get through 2 more hours without eating anymore…only 2!
How hard can it possibly be??? I need to focus on my work and forget that food exists for the next 2 hours!

Have a good one ladies!


WARNING April 15, 2013

Filed under: normal day to day,Who is Candace? — tryingbeauty @ 11:44 am

Ok…So this post also comes with a warning of……If you do not want to see what I look like…stop reading now.
I am actually scared that I might make someone (or maybe a few people) sick……Take this as your warning.

So WHile I am working up the courage to post my pictures here is what I did tonight.

When I got home I did some workout thing that my hypno therapist  told me about (she saw it on some program about loosing weight) It basically works like this: 20secs of intense workout (as hard as you can) then 2 mins rest and repeat 3 times…apparently the guy who did this lost the most weight, but then obviously you do your normal workout aswell….I thought it was a load of BS, but when I did my 3rd rep…I was feeling it a little ( for this I used the Orbitrek. I think in the US you call it the Eliptical) Then I did my Taebo DVD. I then started my healthy dinner and did squats while I was cooking… my knees hurt while I was doing them…so by the look of my pics…do you think I am too heavy to be doing squats at the moment??

THis is your last warning!

My Dinner tonight

You were warned!

I told you.

So I do apologize if I have scared anyone for life…but I did warn you.
I think that I have only put the pics up now cos I was afraid that putting them on will make me have to take more responsibility for my weight, but I am doing it…no more pitty ass excuses!!!


What do yo think?

Filed under: normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 12:11 am

Hello Pretty ladies!!

Ok…I do not want to sound dramatic or anything, but some people may not like what I am going to tell you now.
SO if you are against hypnosis, then you should stop reading now.

Ok so.  Friday afternoon I went for hypnosis for weightloss. I read another girls blog who also did it a few years back and she said that it has worked for her. I am not expecting any DRAMATIC changes or sudden spurts of weightloss, im just hoping it will be a little easier and that I will not want food as bad, and I must say I feel like I am doing ok. I know it is not just going to be one session and then BOOM I will be skinny/ fit (oh I could only dream) But I want to implement the things that she told me into my life and see where it takes me. Let me know what you think about it?

Friday eve I slept like I was never going to wake up…It was so Fantastic!! And then I did wake up just past 7am…oh the pure blissssss!!! and 9am I was working out…ME??? Workingout on a Saturday??? Unheard of…but I DID IT!!!
I felt so awesome!!! I felt inspired and morivated and just good all round.

I went to the shops and I bought ingredients to bake a cake. So I baked a cuppachino/caramel cake for my granny…I love baking cake….she loves eating cake….seems like a win win to me 🙂

I was pretty good this weekend, although I am avoiding the scales for a little while….. Im excited for this week!!!


Double time! April 10, 2013

Filed under: Recipes — tryingbeauty @ 11:01 pm

So yesterday I was meant to walk with my friend ( the one who is getting married in Oct) at 17h30, but she let me know that she will only be able to be at my place by 6pm, so i thought AWESOME..let me relax a little…

And then I did something that I would have NEVER done before….I though…well I have time on my hands….let me do my Taebo DVD and walk with her (cos the walk is more of a bitching session than anything else. We just like to think we are working out) So I got up and I put on my workout clothes again and I did my teabo, and when she arrived at 6 we went for our walk, but we couldnt walk for too lang as the Winter is starting in SA and it is getting dark sooner.

It was so fantastic walking with her and us just venting about whatever is happening in our lives, but most of all I am SUPER proud of myself for actually working out when I had some time to spare…Normally I would have never done that!


Im to scared to blog!!!

Filed under: Getting Motivated again,normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 12:06 am

Hello beauties!!!

Ok, so for the past few weeks or so I have been getting like some kind of spam comments on my blog…when I logged in this morning there were 57!!!! YES!!! 57!!

I dont think there are even 57 of us active bloggers at the moment!!!! Everytime I post I get more and more of these shit comments…its like a chatroom on my comments page and it is driving me INSANE!!!!!
I have contacted 3FC regarding this, but NO ONE has replied to me or anything…can anyone here MAYBE help me? Is anyone else also getting this crap??

Ok so that was my moan for the morning….
I went home after work and when I got there I sat on my bed thinking about if I really wanted to put my workout clothes on, and put my DVD on and do some exercise…..the answer was no!!

So then I got to thinking about you guys, and how hard you guys workout, and I thought about these pictures I always put at the bottom of my posts, and I thought to myself… ” You get your big butt up, get on your workout clothes and …DO IT!!!!!”
And so I did…I got dressed, put on my dvd, I got excited and I got to workingout. And I was SO happy I did!!
I felt great afterwards, I realise I then automatically try to make better food choices.

I went to my sister for dinner, and I heard that she was now making some kind of processed meat with her salad, so I decided to buy a grilled hake and not eat the processed meat with my salad.

It feels great to be back on track again….Im loving it……I dont know why I ever fell off….hahahahahaha

Make today a great day ladies!!


I have come to realise…. April 8, 2013

Filed under: Getting Motivated again,normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 11:26 pm

…that i will eat and eat and eat till I am filled to the point of exploding…I do not know why I do this.

I made myself some Thai green chicken curry yesterday and I thought to myself…” oh people who are alone and dont cook for themselves are silly…I got this cooking for one down to a T”  So I had my lunch…..I ate and ate and ate till my food was finished…I was so full and uncomfortable (sick) and then like a half hour after that I was so tired I could barely keep my peepers open even if you paid me to!!!

So i realized that I have a fear of not having enough food… Shit knows why cos im the size of a baby elephant!!
So I eat and eat and eat till there is nothing left to eat and then I feel like crap for eating so much and physically I am drained…..WOW   what an eye opener!!
And the thing is that it is not just that way with lunch…its breakfast and lunch and dinner….i need to feel completely full. someone once blogged about it feeling or simulating a hug…and i must say I kinda agree with that.

So today I will pop out to the shop and get some salad goodies to make a nice salad and some veggies for a veg soup…stupid delicious Thai green curry no more!!!
My sister invited me for a dinner of fish and salad so I am looking forward to that….no cooking for me toninght (booya) but first I will be doing some time in the gym…I LOVE GETTING MY GROOVE BACK!!!


Feeling good :-) April 7, 2013

Filed under: Getting Motivated again — tryingbeauty @ 9:41 pm

Ok…So it is Monday morning, I have worked this WHOLE weekend, and I am tired. But last night I felt depressed and down and like life was chasing me….Surely there has got to be more to life than this…The day to day struggle of loosing weight, eating rite, wishing you had money for this or that. Now I am a believer that – you are not allowed to complain if you are not doing anything to fix it… SO today I am feeling positive and good, and I am making better choices….Im feeling motivated. I would even go as far as to say I am feeling happy,…which I have not been in a while…I am normally a happy person…but I have just been down these past few weeks.

Im getting excited again to do the rite things for me and for my future and my health and my happiness.

So I am taking on this monday and the rest of this week with a smile on my face.


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