Oh spammers how you show so much love to my blog! I haven’t posted in a while I’m pretty sure the last post I was down to 153, well I’m back up again to 156. I’m not going to lie I’m pretty disappointed in myself. I had this test this week 360 questions actually it was only 330 but still that’s beside the point I completely bombed it (I get to write it a second time if I failed so I’m going to start studying again each section 1 by 1 each day since I now pretty much know what the test consists off and hopefully the second time around I can get that 80% that is needed) and maybe I was stressing too much about it and binged not to mention TOM was coming and I always binge like crazy around that time once it hits I’m usually good and the cravings and binging but last week was crazy. I went up to 160 pounds on Monday which was ridiculous! I’m back down to 156 which I’m not really happy about but it’s better than 160!  

So things seem to be going better with Boy ever since I backed off last night he deleted his online dating profile sites and I didn’t even ask him to, he just did it. I now ignore his comments when he brings up the word girlfriend. For example when he said “In 9 months when you’re my girlfriend we can move in together.” and shit like that obviously he likes me, obviously he wants to keep me around for some time because when he’s shopping for trailers and tents he’ll ask me if I will sleep in them. I’ve become pretty mentally distance with him after he said to me if I keep bringing up the girlfriend thing it’s not going to happen and I just went into I don’t care mode afterwards and become less available in a mental aspect and ever since then he seriously stepped up his game.

The other day he made dinner, chicken, shrimp, with raw peas and tomatoes alongside potatoes and bought raspberries and black berries with real fudge for dessert. I’m happy, he seems happy and the weather is finally picking up so we can go out and do more things and I won’t always be freezing.

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