Insanity again…

Posted lodyangel on August 27th, 2010 | Filed under General | 1 Comment »

Okay…A quick exercise update.

I started Insanity yesterday after all. I did 40 mins of Run/walking. 45 mins of Insanity, and 32 mins of Bike riding. Total mins 117. Calories burned 1260. :O

Today I rode the bike for 35 mins and did insanity for 40 mins. Total mins: 75. Total calories burned: 805.

I’m a beast!

Melody on a mission

Posted lodyangel on August 26th, 2010 | Filed under exercise, Food log, General | Comment now »

I am pulling myself up by my bootstraps and getting my Sh*t in order! I’m sick of being sick, and feeling bad, and not feeling like myself. I have things I wanna do. Things I wanna accomplish and I gotta get over this gunk I have and get on it!

The last few days I have spent mostly sleeping.  I think its partly the illness, partly depression- very mild depression– and it comes and goes. I do really well until the Ex comes around trying to be my “friend.” Then I think about all the crap he’s done to me and I let it get to me. I’m  just gonna keep him at arms length. If I don’t let him worm his way back in, he doesn’t have that power over me unless I allow him to have it. He gets it no longer. I don’t want him back, but I am still so angry with him for what he has done.

I got up this morning and took the kiddies to school. I them went to the park and ran/walked. It felt soooo good. I didn’t want to stop. I did 40 mins of run/ walking.  It felt sooooo good to run! I ran like I do when I dream of running…fast, light, painless, free. I know that the next time I run my body will be tired from working out and my joints sore from the pounding I gave them today, but it will all be worth it if eventually the majority of my runs feel like this in the future. LOVED IT! There were two skinny girls running behind me and they couldn’t catch me.  That part was great…and to think I hadn’t ran in well over 2 months!

Would like to do insanity and get a bike ride in tonight but don’t want to over do it. I think I will just do the bike ride tonight and get up early tomorrow and do insanity (I think I am suppose to work). I think I will do a 20 minute biggest loser workout today. That will give me well over an hours worth of sweat time.

Meals today? Breakfast will be a smoothie with a protein shot mixed in. Lunch will be LC spaghetti and a string cheese. Dinner will be enchiladas rancheras, with lots of lettuce and tomatoes.  The kids won’t eat that so I think they can have left over tacos from last night! They won’t care they love tacos.

Well here is my schedule for today.

10:00-12:00 Breakfast/Job hunting
12:00-12:30 BL workout
12:30-3:40: Lunch/ housework/ grocery store/ pick kids up from school
3:40- 4:45: Kids homework and chores
4:45-5:45: laundry/ dishes
5:45- 6:45: Dinner
6:45-8:00: Bike Riding
8:00-9:00: Get kids ready for bed.
9:00-???: FB/ reading/ Free time

Well Chickees…Have a great day!! <3


Posted lodyangel on August 18th, 2010 | Filed under General | Comment now »

Good Morning Chickees! Long time, no see, for some of you!

Well for those of you who are not my friends on fb…the first thing you need to know is that the BF has now been retired to the Ex!! 🙂 He moved out June 5th, and though ending a 15 year relationship was hard the first month or so, I have moved on and am not looking back. I wish I could detail all that has happened in the last few months, but it would take pages and pages. The short version is he moved out. At the time he wouldn’t tell me why and of course there was another girl. Her name was Laura. He moved Laura in for a week and then kicked her back out and tried to come back to me. Laura and I started talking and realized that he was still trying to play us both, so we both quit him. She has now become a good friend. He can’t stand that because now he can’t play us both anymore. She has moved on and so have I. He of course has another girl. This one was his first, well not be vulgar…but his first piece of @$$. She also has since been a prostitute while she was in college. So ewwwww!!! He is welcome to her and her to him. He still comes back every once in awhile and tries to worm his way back in, but I ain’t having it. We had such a strong attraction to each other. It was magnetic. We couldn’t stay away from each other. Well, it seems my magnet has flipped to the opposite end. Cause when he tries to come around me, it pushes me away. I know many of you who have been watching me go through it with him are saying “it’s about time!” And your right it is! I wished I had gotten to this point years ago! It would have made dating so much easier!!

As it is, I am just trying to have fun. I have 3 guys that I “talk” to that may end up as being more than friendship. One of them I guess you could call my “Friend with benefits.” Please don’t think I am a slut!! Lol! But I had been with the same man for 15 years and after we broke up it drove me nuts that he was the last one to touch me!! This guy, C, has been my friend for longer than I was with the Ex and I had kept in touch with him even though Ex hated it! (As a matter of fact, when we broke up he tried to make me promise I would never do anything with C. I didn’t promise. I wish I had now, just so I could have broken the promise since he never kept a promise he ever made to me. Lol!) I know petty…but well, the Ex has disrespected me more than Anyone should ever have to endure. A little revenge is good. The Ex, I have since found out, had messed around on me with C’s Ex-girlfriend, when they were together. So our going out, is a type of revenge since Ex didn’t want me with him at any cost, and she is always trying to get C back. Plus being with C helped me tremendously. It helped me cut that final tie I had to the Ex. So, its all good. BTW…The Ex does not know anything about me and C. He is a bit crazy…heck, A LOT CRAZY… so I keep it on the DL. Lol! He knows we are friends but that is all. So the revenge is in my knowledge that I did the one thing he didn’t want me too!! That’s enough for me…he never has to know. C and I talk everyday and we hang out about once a week. He’s a good guy, but he has that Ex drama going on all the time…I don’t wanna get in the middle of that. So things are good the way they are for now.

Guy #2 is a guy I have known since HS, but never really “known” til now. We went out one night on my first date!! He didn’t even kiss me good night! We have since talked and we rode around one night. He seems to be scared to make any type of move on me and that’s okay. I would rather take it slow with him. He’s obviously been burned…a bunch… and I like him in a way that could get me hurt too if I rush into anything. So we aren’t gonna do that. He’s pretty stable, has a son he adores, and doesn’t drink or do drugs. That right there is enough to make me wanna hang onto him. However, I am taking my time. I talk to him everyday too. I will call him “J” for future reference.

Guy #3 seems really nice but I am pretty sure he is going to remain in the “friend” category. My BIL worked with him and said he is psycho. Definitely don’t need or want that. Plus I am not really attracted to him. I’m calling him “M.”

I have reconnected with many of my friends from HS. I have went out with my friend “Carkie” who I have known since 3rd grade, SB- I have known since Elementary, Candi- I have known since at least HS if not before, TJ (a guy), who I have known since Kindergarten. I also have hung out with “Big Daddy-” Who I have known since HS, that was his nickname in HS and yes I still call him that. Lol! Oh and Moneeeka, who I have known since Jr High. So I have a lot of friends to keep me busy. It’s good cause the EX never let me keep my friends, so it is really good that I have reconnected with them.

The kids have had a hard time dealing with the break-up. They re getting better, but Devin is really having a hard time. He’s pretty angry with his Dad, and I get to deal with the brunt of all that anger, cause Dear ol’ Dad isn’t here to help. But I can handle it. After the 2 months I have had I know there is nothing I can’t handle.

Here’s a short version of what has went down this summer…BF and I broke up. My Cat and Best friend in the world, Chessie, was run over and killed. That almost did me in. At the time I had no friends and my family hasn’t been very supportive. That was the worst thing besides losing a human family member that could have happened to me. I am still grieving him terribly.
I got bronchitis and pneumonia and have been sick with it for nearly 2 months. I am feeling better but still have the horrible cough. I lost 25 pounds from the break up and riding bikes with my kids. When I got sick I had to stop. The last 2 nights I have felt well enough to go again, but I coughed a bunch! I had a breast cancer scare. I am still unemployed, and very poor! My son moves out and goes to College tomorrow. So many changes…

But even with things so awful I have to say they are better. I am decently happy, even though I have bad moments. But I have something I didn’t have before…I have Hope. And that is the neatest gift this break up has given me…cause I know there are better things out there for me.

Breaking up is hard to do…

Posted lodyangel on June 12th, 2010 | Filed under General | 3 Comments »

I haven’t been on here for the last few months and you guys have missed a lot. My baby graduated from high school, and on the same day Josh and I broke up. It’s been coming for awhile. Honestly, we should have broken up after he cheated on me the last time.  But in an effort to keep my family together I took him back and well…it was a mistake. The break up was mutual, though if he had been willing to get help I would have allowed him to stay.  He wouldn’t and so I let him leave.  Last weekend was awful with the graduation, and the parties so much happiness and sadness rolled into one, big, ball.  I cried and cried and have since them some, but things are better now that he is gone.  It turns out he was in fact cheating on me again, which is why he wanted to leave in the first place.  There has been a burden lifted off my shoulders because now I am not responsible for what he does, and I don’t have to worry about it anymore. While there is a part of me that will always love him, I am glad he’s gone so I can get on with the rest of it. The kids took it hard, but are adjusting well and are preferring home without Dad to home with Dad. He was anal about their chores and would often make them re-do chores because he thought they weren’t good enough. It was a huge issue with us, we fought a lot about it.   He also has an alcohol addiction and that caused major problems with us. However, We are done for good. There is no going back this time. I want him outta my life.

I am so ready to  move on with the rest of my life.  The kids and I are taking a mini vacation to Virginia Beach on Wednesday.  I have never seen the ocean and time away-even for a few days- will be good for me. It is my first vacation with the kids by myself and I feel so grown up taking it. Virginia Beach is at least  6 hours away, and  I am taking the 3 youngest kids by myself. I don’t have a lot of money, so we are taking all our food with us and staying in a cheap hotel, that is hopefully clean.  🙂  I am hoping to do it for a few hundred dollars gas and all.   We will see how we do.

I have lost 11 pounds due to the break up and my size 18 capris are falling off me!  🙂  More tomorrow!!

Day 2

Posted lodyangel on April 20th, 2010 | Filed under General | Comment now »

First day went great!! I ran with Trinity and stuck to my diet. I struggled a little today thus far. BLAH!

Rest of the day food for day 1

3 choc donettes

whole wheat cheese tortillini

marinara sauce

garlic bread


ranch dressing

I’m Back!

Posted lodyangel on April 19th, 2010 | Filed under Food log, General | 2 Comments »

Okay, I’m back!

I want to make a request of my FB friends who are on here. If I drop off from blogging it is becasue I have dropped off my diet. If I drop off please get on FB and tell me to get my butt back on here. If I’m not blogging, I’m not doing well. Feel free to text me too. My number is visible to my friends on fb. Do what you have to do to get me back here. Thank you in advance. I need the support and accountability and am not getting it from the people who surround me.

I quit everything. Insanity, running, everything. I did run a 3K in March, and was very slow!! But I ran most of it.  My 9 year old daughter ran too and beat me by 4 mins!! 🙂 Go Trinity!

I am starting back to running today. Trinity and I are going to run tonight while Devin has soccer practice at the park.  There is a 5K in a neighboring town on May 8th and I am going to run that with her.  Trinity ran her first 5K on Saturday. She finished 36th overall and won 3rd in her age group. She recieved a medal! She has worn it non-stop since Saturday…even sleeping in it and wearing it to school today.  🙂 She didn’t run the entire distance, but we are slowly working on it. I don’t want to pressure to her.  She is having fun with it and that’s the way I want it. If she decides to quit, that will be fine with me.  However, I love that I finally have a runner in my brood. I think she is going to be the only one.

Insanity is starting back soon too. I am mad at myself for quitting. I really could see a difference after just 7 days.  So I am going to get back to that too, if not this week then next.

My diet I am doing is a clean foods/ whole foods diet. I have order Jamie Olivers book “Food Revolution” and I am trying to eat clean. My goal for today is 90% unprocessed foods. WHICH IS HARD, becasue everything is processed. I am counting unprocessed foods as anything that you can look at it and know what it used to be.  For example, raisins are processed but I know what it used to be.

Here’s what I have eaten so far…foods that are marked through count as processed.

handful of peanuts (roasted, raw, unsalted)



Salad (Lettuce, tomato, raisins, green pepper, turkey deli meat,  cauliflower, cucumber, red onion)

Ranch dressing


I’ll be back later to report how I have done today and comment!

Insanity Day…#whatever!

Posted lodyangel on February 26th, 2010 | Filed under General, INSANITY! | 8 Comments »

I am off my insanity schedule! I have been working, and running errands and have not gotten back in time to get my workouts in! 🙁   I am going to do everything possible to get back to it today!  I had already noticed definition in my stomach and had lost 3 pounds!  So its working! yay!

I’m subbing today in the EBD room. Its been too easy of a day!  Almost boring. All the kids have an aid and the aids have been doing all the teaching!  SO I am pretty bored. Thus, I have time to get on 3FC! LOL!  THe kids are all in their regular classrooms right now!

Happy to report that Devin made the middle school soccer team!  Its good to see all his hard work pay off!  I love that kid!! 🙂  I took him to Hibbett Sports to buy him new soccer cleats, shinguards, and a soccer bag for practice. It cost over $70!  THen I took him out to eat…another $40. Then I had to order Christian’s graduation announcements…they were $130.  THat does not include his cap and gown!! Geesh!  Glad today is payday!

You ladies have a terrific day!

Insanity Day #4

Posted lodyangel on February 18th, 2010 | Filed under exercise, General, INSANITY! | 5 Comments »

Okay…Day 4 of INSANITY!!!

Another tough workout. I did Cardio Power and Resistance. I think I sweated more than with the plyometric workout, but I like this one much better. Was it easier? I think for me it was…just a little. OR maybe I am well rested from my day off yesterday. I also ate a marathon energy bar nad an apple as my first meal. Maybe that helped?? My after workout meal will be a “Super whey protein shot- ultimate recovery fuel”. I am hoping it helps my muscles recover faster.  Despite all that though, my muscles still feel like jello.

I got the “runner’s high” a little off this workout, but not til the end so it didn’t help much.  🙁   I think that doing these workouts will help with my running, because it is strengthening my body in ways that running will not, and it is helping retrain my quick twitch muscles…so I can go faster! 🙂

My calves really bothered me during the warm-up-despite my warming up and stretching [I]before[/I] doing insanity. However, they were fine the rest of the workout. My bum knee bothered me some during the jumps. I am going to have to make sure I get my form right and not worry so much about keeping up with the video. With good form the speed will come. It just takes time. I don’t wanna injure myself.

Calories burned today 472.

Well I am going to go ice my knee by going snowboarding with the kids! 😆

Insanity Day 3

Posted lodyangel on February 18th, 2010 | Filed under General | 1 Comment »

Calves were still rebelling, the kids were home, TOM is here. I am taking my day off for the week. I am sure I will regret doing this later, but WTH!!

Day 2 Updated

Posted lodyangel on February 18th, 2010 | Filed under exercise, INSANITY! | Comment now »

On Day 2 I did the first “real” workout.  It was Plyometric cardio circuit.  It was tough, but did not make me want to  puke!!  However, I am going to have to start warming up before the actual warm up. Shaun T just jumps in full force! (Even he is outta breathe within the first minute and a half!) My Calves rebelled.  They knotted up and did not want to play anymore. I kept having to stop and try to stretch them out. It was a little better after the stretching, which comes after the 10 minute, insane, warm up. So from now on I am going to warm up and stretch before the insanity warm up.  Crazy, I know…

I burned 445 calories in 40 minutes according to my heart rate monitor watch. Of course fat girls burn more calories!   😆