Day 3…and i’m still on the wagon.

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Today is my 3rd day and i’m still doing well. Almost a little proud of myself. Aside from the feeling that my life has turned upside down in the last 3 hours i’m doing well. Going to get ready for work and turn my phone off once I get there. Hoping all this stress doesn’t bring back my palpatations that i have had in recent years. Seems stress brings them on. Hoping i get to work and am so busy that i forget about it all…for at least 8 hours.

I did it!

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I made it through my first day without eating crap food when i came home. I tried to have a grapefruit…that didn’t work well so i had a bowl full of cooked carrots. My favorite veggie treat 🙂  I also just started a little mini challenge today.

Starting today…and for the next 21 days….

NO….chocolate, candy, cookies or biscuits, cakes, donuts or muffins, pastries, white bread, chips, fast food, spreads (nutella and pb), and no ice cream! I can do this!!!!!

Starting over…again…

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I don’t even know where to begin. I’ve always struggled with my weight. Right out of high school i was in a very abusive relationship and became anorexic. I dropped to my lowest weight of 147 and got so many compliments from my family and friends. If they only knew how I got to that weight. It seemed like no one noticed…and it was my secret. I moved away 4 years later to get away from my abuser and gained weight once I got into a stable relationship. I moved home 4 years later, and lost weight again. Only to lose it again when going through a divorce. My highest weight was 220. After my divorce I lose 65 lbs and got down to 155. Now I am back at roughly 180. I’m so severly depressed. I don’t know where to start. I don’t want to fall back into my old habits…but i feel myself doing it. I work somedays 14 hours and do not eat all day until usually 7pm at work. That meal consists of a graham cracker. I am on my feet all day long taking care of patients and residents and really do not have the time to eat. Until I get home…then I sit at this computer and eat. That is my downfall. I looked up some exercises to do at home, in the mornings before I leave for work, and plan on starting tomorrow…I just need to know more about how to use this site, as I have used others in the past that really didn’t help, and ideas on how to control my eating when I get home at night. I need the support more than anything. If anyone has any ideas for me I would greatly appreciate it. Not even sure I’m posting on the thread I should be. I should also add that I have been on zoloft for a year now and recently changed jobs and am between insurances so i haven’t been on my meds for a month now. Its really effecting me. I need to get back on them as soon as possible. That might make this weight loss a little easier…or at least get me out of this funk.