I finally went back to weight watchers yesterday. I joined for eight weeks. I was very weary to get on the scale as the last time I weighed in was maybe two weeks or so ago at a friends place. I weighed 223. I really have been working out a lot and started tracking one week ago. I hoped to have least lost a pound or two. I weighed in at 219.  It was better than gaining, but I’m still pissed off that since I stopped tracking and weight watchers in mid march I have gained eight pounds. Now it is down to 5 pounds that I have to lose to be back where I was in mid march (214).

The whole thing depresses me, but I need to try very hard to lose those five pounds plus a lot more. I’m doing very short term goals from now on so that I don’t get frustrated and lose confidence. My next goal is to lose five pounds to get back to where I was. And then after that to get to 211 which is my 10% goal which I should have reached a long time ago. I’m not going to beat myself up, but I am going to work hard from now on in. I have a long way to go it seems but I have the time. I want to get to close to my goal weight be mid to late May of 2012. I am not one to fool around when I have a goal like that. I need to be so so focused and not let anything get in my way (which is me that usually gets in my own way and sabotages myself).

I’m going to try and write at least on a weekly basis and maybe more. I need to keep track of how I’m doing and I find writing helps a lot.