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my life is upside down December 28, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — hveeck @ 2:52 pm

the last couple months have been hell!!! I have had no will to write in this blog, and dont know when I will be able to get back, mainly because I am focusing on my family life right now and not so much my weight loss. unfortunetely, when disaster happens, its hard to stay focused.  My husband is on drugs! I found out last month, he is taking pills. he knows people I dont know, he lies about where he is, who he’s with, and money! he steals money from me and so many other things.  I need to divorce him, but its hard with three kids. we have been married for 10 yrs! I dont even begin to know how to be single.  my kids are still little and they dont even understand what’s going on.  I am at a loss. I am depressed and unable to function properly. every day is a struggle just to get out of bed and go to work. I HATE him and its eating me up inside.  I think I may kick him out today, but that leaves me with so many other problems. I cant live with him like this anymore. I want to eat healthy and work out, but its just hard enouph getting out of bed. this christmas was one of the worst I have had in a long long time. I hope every one else had a good one. talk to you later


5 Responses to “my life is upside down”

  1. paperskin Says:

    I am sorry you are going through so much hell because of your husband. I don’t even know what to say to you, or give you any advice. Just know we are here to listen to you and hold your hand through this nightmare.

  2. Laura Jean Says:

    It does sound as if your life is a bit upside down, but through the chaos comes change. I can’t remember who said that, but it’s true. I am a single Mom and I can tell you it can be done! And it was very chaotic for about a year, then I could feel the change was worth it. Everyone is different and you must make your own choices, but it is ultimately YOUR choice. Be strong!

  3. trinac Says:

    please remember who you are in this process and the most important part is that you are a MOTHER. You have to stay strong for your children and you have to do what’s best for them. You have to stay strong right now and if leaving him is best for you and the kids then that’s what you need to do. You have to take care of your children’s MOTHER. I hope it all works out for you.

  4. round Says:

    Oh gosh, I’m really sorry to hear this. I have a very good friend who went through this with his wife (three times in fact). It’s a really hard situation, but caring for your family (kids) has to come before him, and in the end YOU can’t help him, only HE can help HIMSELF.

  5. billie Says:


    I wish i knew what to say to help.

    I struggle with wanting to but not wanting to divorce my husband too.

    “Life is hard enough already, and he only makes it harder.” — “Where the Wild Things Are” film

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