I want to share a couple of pictures – a before and after.

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Just how many times can we have “life changing” experiences??  Well, I’m not sure how many I’ve had thus far but I have had another.  Last Saturday there was a TOPS Fall Rally for our area.  I did receive a few awards but the biggest recognition was being presented the Century Award.  In TOPS, Take Off Pounds Sensibly, the Century Award Medallion is highly regarded and a huge award that is earned.  On one side of this beautiful pendant necklace is a picture of Edith Manz, the founder of TOPS, and on the other side is the Centruy Award and a statement declaring that the recipient has not only lost a hundred pounds or more, but that they have kept it off for 52 consequetive weeks.  I am so very thankful to have come this far in my weight loss journey.  It has not been an easy road to travel.  It is a lonely road sometimes being the odd man out in numerous situations but I am worth it.  I have to keep telling myself that all the time.  I am worth it.  I have to keep going in the right direction, away from where I was and where I do not want to revisit- EVER!

I have not been at my best, as far as focussing, for the last few months and know this.  I have maintained within about 10 pounds so I am not terribly disappointed in that.  I am disappointed though that I have gotten this far and have kind of wasted my time and efforts in not obtaining the big goal.  I am within 20 pounds or so of where I need to be to be in a healthy fat percent and BMI.  It’s hard to say if I can really get there because of the excess skin.  All I have to say about that is I really, really appreciate spandex!!  Thank goodness no one has to see me nude – LOL!! 

As I sit here hungry – I know that it is only a mental hunger and desire to munch – I am struggling to not go and find something to nibble.  What good would that do?  I don’t want to go the wrong direction on the scales for sure.  Then what would eating something wrong do for my metabolism?  Stop it!  I don’t want that. 

I want to share a couple of pictures – a before and after.

We bought this negative converter that changes negatives to pictures on your computer.  A few weeks ago I finally tried it and one of the first pictures that I came across was this one.  I think I really teared up.  How did I ever let myself get to that condition.  I don’t know what I was thinking but I know what I’m thinking now and that is what matters now.


The setting of this picture is a stop on the Natchez Trace.  We went so far down the path and I had set the timer on the camera.  It was facing where we had come from.  I am sure at the time that I went no further due to not being capable. Now, a couple weeks ago, we took a drive down the Natchez again.  I’m thinking to myself, can we find the same path? can we recreate that picture?

Why yes we did find the same path! I set the camera going the other way – continuing down the path, not remembering exactly the direction but knowing that we found the spot.  I didn’t mean to do that but to compare the pictures of where I was, where I came from to now, the present and where I’m going.  I went down the rocky trail with my family, all the way to the bottom!  A couple of friends have said that I look like one of the girls. 

The trail is a great representation of my weight loss journey, how far I have come and the possibilities that lie ahead.  I can get there with patience and endurance with focus/obsession and the support from TOPS, MRC and my family, friends, coworkers and internet companions.  Thank you for helping me get this far.  I have to keep going. The end, and beginning, is so near.  I am doing it for me!