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revised affirmations because I need to be more honest with myself January 5, 2012

Filed under: Life, The Universe, And Everything — didibuttonsley @ 5:17 pm

Last night I was struck by insomnia monsters, and as per usual my swiss cheese and tapioca brain was running twelve miles a minute.  I was thinking about the hate loss challenge and the positive vocabulary list.  I was thinking that NONE of my affirmations made me squirm at all.  I may not believe those happy things about myself all of the time, but half of me knows that those statements are true.  I can say them with a smile, because I have been integrating that information into my system.  Those ideas are no longer totally foreign.
Well, eventually this got me to thinking that I need to add some items that I IMMEDIATELY wish to reject.  These are things that if I say them out loud, my brain tells me “Well, that’s a big lie.  You aren’t that at all and you never will be.”
I need to counteract the poison thoughts that still have a complete hold on me.  My list of affirmations is beautiful and positive, and it is helping me to repeat them to myself, but I have to dig deeper.  The closest I came to hitting a nerve was the “I am successful” affirmation.
I grew up neglected and criticized.  As a result of this I believe that I am not good enough.  I am not reliable, I make too many mistakes to do things on my own, and I believe that I always do something wrong no matter what I am doing.  I also believe that people do not support me.  I believe that they will judge me harshly.  I believe that others will not take care of me, and that they will only use me.  I need to counteract those negative and harmful thoughts, because they are holding me back and I know it.  My dad still is not supportive of the things that I wish to do, and he always has something negative to throw in if I try talking about any of them.  He was quick to let me know that he didn’t really picture me doing midwifery when I made it clear that I was going away to school.  He has remarked many times that selling crystals at craft fairs will not make any money.  When I talk about getting clients he brings up the fact that he wasn’t able to generate enough business that way, and then he mentions that another friend of ours also gave up on that idea because it wasn’t working out.  These are the negatives beliefs that I need to torch the hell out of.
So here is the new list.  The key points that need the most work I repeated several times.


I am reliable.  I am successful.  I achieve my goals!  I am able to commit!  I have a career that I love!  I am supported by others around me.  I am honest.  I am liked.  I am lovely.  I am reliable!  I am successful!  I achieve my goals!  I am able to commit!  I have a career that I love! I am taken care of.  People are always loving, and thoughtful, and supportive.  I am beautiful.  I am confident!  I am strong!  I am reliable!  I am successful!  I achieve my goals!  I am able to commit!  I have a career that I love! I am hilarious!  I am helpful!  I am always safe!  I am gorgeous!  I am supported by others around me!  I am brilliant!  I am friendly!  I am reliable!  I am successful!  I achieve my goals!  I am able to commit!  I have a career that I love!  I am creative!  I am independent!  I am loved!  I am kind!  I am compassionate!  I am reliable!  I am successful!  I achieve my goals!  I am able to commit! I have a career that I love!  I am adorable!  I am supported by others around me!  I am witty! I am unique!  I am wise!  I go after what I want!  I am reliable!  I am successful!  I achieve my goals!  I am able to commit!   I have a career that I love! I have a career that I love!  I am a super sultry sexy goddess!!  I love me!!!  I love me so!!!

 

6 Responses to “revised affirmations because I need to be more honest with myself”

  1. felesi Says:

    This is beautiful, I love it. People view drug addicts and alcoholics as individuals in great need of outside help. People view someone overweight as someone who needs to fix themselves. We are finally celebrating a healing process from injuries that have so profoundly effected us in a world that teaches us our weight struggles are in and of themselves a character flaw. Thanks for your help with the ticker, and all your unending support with my writing.

  2. audreyhepburn1981 Says:

    You go girl!

  3. goodnuff Says:

    🙂

  4. misscatty Says:

    Awesome post Didi…
    You watch the movie the Help? Bring a box if tissues if you ahven’t. But You Is Smart, you Is Kind, You is Important… has stuck with me like a song.. just like to say .. You is Smart.. You Is kind, YOU IS IMPORTANT!

  5. didibuttonsley Says:

    @ misscatty- I totally saw that movie the other day, and now I really want to read the book. I am hoping I can suggest it for the book club, and that it will go over well. My dad told me that he read the book long ago and really loved it.

  6. munchberry Says:

    Your dad irks the shit out of me.

    One day his eyes will open and he will see how wrong he was about you… if he is lucky.

    Meanwhile you do what drives you and do it passionately. You do not lack passion. You know how few can say that?

    Big hug adorableness.

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