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before bed babbles November 30, 2011

Filed under: Life, The Universe, And Everything — didibuttonsley @ 9:00 pm

I am dozing dozing dozing over this keyboard, but I wanted to write a little bit before I take a stroll to bedfordshire.  I certainly am not getting a whole lot of “me” time lately, and I think I am going to have to set aside some time in the mornings for blogging.  I’ve not caught up with everybody’s blogs yet, but I am getting there.

Tomorrow I have to take my car to emissions, because for some bizarre-o reason the damn place is closed on Wednesdays.  Isn’t it great when you drive your butt all the way over to a place only to find out that it isn’t open?  NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!  I had to get the O2 censor thinger replaced (finally) so that I could take it through emissions and renew the plates and yadda yadda yadda.  I should retire my car and travel by mule.  Do any of you guys know where I can find a reasonably priced mule at this hour on a Wednesday?  How much does it cost to feed a mule?  Maybe this isn’t such a good idea.  If I had to move from Florida to Wisconsin by mule instead of Honda Civic, I’d probably just be plodding up my driveway now.  Yipes.  That makes me think of that game The Oregon Trail…  Man, that game was cool.  I have a feeling the upkeep of a conestoga wagon and a pair of oxen would be way more of a pain than getting new plates and registration for my car.  What the heck am I even babbling about?

Well, I now have two stores carrying my lovely lovely crystals, and there is a third in the works.  My mom is going to help me out with new pictures for my etsy shop (hopefully next Wednesday) so that I can get it running again.  My goal is to have ten stores in a year, and I should be doing craft fairs by the spring.  I would have liked to do a few pre-Christmas fairs, but I need a little more start up money.  It has been slow going, but I’m sticking to it and staying optimistic.  I am still hoping to get more clients for metaphysical healing, yet that has been slow as well.  I have to admit that I don’t really know how to advertise for myself and get myself out there.  I’ve got super sweet business cards, but I’m not sure where I should be distributing them.  Any suggestions?  I suppose I should just leave cards at places that offer alternative treatments for healing- maybe the chiropractor or acupuncturist…  Hmmmm.

On the fourth I am doing at least eight days of detoxing.  I got pretty sick, and have this obnoxious lingering cough that simply won’t go away, and my poor body feels so sluggish lately.  Chris likes to do fasts, and wanted to try the master cleanse with me, so we have decided to do it together.  We were going to start it last Monday, but then he remembered this mandatory Christmas ball thingy that they are doing for his unit on Saturday.  Leave it to the armed forces to throw a mandatory formal ball.  I think they are missing the point with all this forced holiday cheer.  Anywhoozles, I told him I’d go a while back, and I don’t want to interrupt a detox with that kind of nonsense.  In addition to the master cleanse I am throwing in some guided imagery cds, aerobics, and other relaxing and rejuvenating tidbits.

Apart from being sickly, I also am having a really wretched period.  That is totally not typical for me.  I was so miserable and crampy the other day that I announced to my entire household that I was going to tear out my ovaries and uterus, pitch them onto the floor, and stomp on them gleefully.  Holy drama, Batman.

I’m going to go read some bloggies now.  I still have catching up to do.


no, sorry, you may not blog right now November 29, 2011

Filed under: Life, The Universe, And Everything — didibuttonsley @ 3:47 pm

I thought I would have a minute to blog, but something is always coming up.  The kids want to play a game, or need help with homework, or my dad wants me to go someplace, or blah blah blah.

I just want to blog here, people! BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

My dad is here, and is now pestering me.  Guess I have to blog later.  Le sigh.


Love and Some Verses November 19, 2011

Filed under: Life, The Universe, And Everything — didibuttonsley @ 6:40 pm

song of the day – Love and Other Verses – Iron and Wine

I am feeling overwhelmingly lovey dovey today, and you all are the BEST to share mushy gushy musings with.  I might be back to two hundred, and not quite on track, and in a state of abject poverty, but jeepers am I a happy camper.  I don’t know what the heck I did to impress the powers that be, but I totally believe that some goddess carved Chris out of a solid block of fuckin’ awesome (yes, awesome sauce included) and had me in mind.  I NEVER in my most wildly adventurous (and… errr… naughty) slash optimistic dreams could have imagined that I would meet somebody who complements me so perfectly.  For fricken realsies, people.  I don’t want to say that any human is capable of perfection; but this one is bloody perfect for me.  Can you believe that there is another creature and nerdy and goofy as moi?  The two of us are so ridiculous together, that my cousin, Jecca, is constantly laughing at us and teasing me about it.

Yep.  It’s like that.

Ok.  So I want to tell you guys some new things that I have been doing, and I am prepared to be teased ruthlessly and without mercy.  I recently acquired and created a Pokemon deck.  Yeah.  I know.  Go ahead and laugh.  It’s the nerdiest shit ever.  He’s been playing that game (the card game and the different video games) since he was a kid, and totally loves it, so he taught me how to play it.  That’s right.  My fella and I play Pokemon in bed together.  Tee hee hee.

And he also plays World of Warcraft with a group of people every Wednesday night, so he taught me how to play that.  It is now on my computer, and I actually really like it.  I don’t have much time to play it at all, but that is probably for the best.  I don’t want to end up like one of those goons who plays online all the time, never leaves the house, and stops giving a crap about personal hygiene.  Picture me a hundred pounds heavier and a hundred times smellier- ah yes, that will be “gamer Didi.”  We’ve played some other Xbox games as well.  I never had much of a chance to play video games, so it’s fun hanging out at his house once in a while and shooting zombies.  I was pretending to be a badass zombie killer, but the truth is that my gaming skills are next to nil.  The first time we played he had to make a run for the boat and leave me behind to die in a mass of zombies, because I kept getting ripped to shreds.  Good times.

In return I have taught him some card games (my family is INSANELY into cards.  by the age of twelve I knew more card games than most adults ever know in a lifetime) and dragged him around to my favorite places and nature spots.  He taught me how to use most of his cameras, so we take a lot of pictures (haven’t gotten any developed yet) and that is pretty fun,  I really dislike digital cameras, but I love all the different kinds of cameras that Chris has.  They take the coolest pictures.  I never even knew cameras could do all that stuff.

Yesterday he told me he loved me for the first time, and I was so happy I wanted to piss my pants with glee.  How’s that for romance?  Tell me that you love me, and I whiz all over myself.  That would be a heck of a glitch to ignore…  I, digress.  Anywhoozles.  He said, “I have wanted to say that to you for a while, but I was afraid to.  I never thought I would meet anybody like you.”  And then comes the part when I dissolve into a mushy puddle of dizzy infatuation and loveyness; and afterwards the people around us shake their heads and make comments about how sickeningly cute we are together.  Uh-huh.  He said that to me in front of my cousin and a couple of our friends.  He just didn’t want to wait any longer to tell me, so he hugged me and declared his love like a total bad ass in front of our gooney friends.  SIgh.  Double sigh.  Swoon swoon swoon.

When I sneeze I add “oozles” on the end of it.  It comes out a silly sounding “achoozles.”  I don’t know why I like adding “ey” and “oozles” on the end of things, but it’s a habit that I have had for a long time.  Well, he has taken to saying “bless youzles” whenever I sneeze.  Did I mention that I was batshit crazy for this guy?  More swoons.

Oh.  And when I was a kid we had this neato game called “Hero Quest” that I played with my parents and cousins alllllll the time.  It came out in ’89 though, so a copy of it is now hundreds of dollars.  Chris had the idea of making our own, so we made a board together out of foam board.  The original one that we made had inch squares, and we ended up making another with inch and a half squares because the monster figures (from a different game he used to play in junior high and highschool) that we decided to use were too big.  We colored each room differently with brush markers, and both boards turned out awesome.  All the pdf’s for the game tiles, cards, rule book, and “quests” we found on the internet and printed out on cardstock that Chris had.  I’ll probably post some pictures of everything when it is completely finished, so that the internet world has proof of how nerdy we are.  I’ve wanted to play Hero Quest off and on over the years whenever I am feeling particularly nostalgic, but it never occurred to me to just make my own.  I dig the creativity.

Sooooo I am about to go eat dinner, and I need to wrap this up.  And no, I haven’t been doing aerobics regularly or dieting or doing anything like that.  Bother.  I still want to get back to my natural size, and have more tone and health and all, but the distractions are permitting me to be lazy about it.  I also now have a guy telling me how beautiful I am every single day.  That is pretty sweet, I gotta admit.  I want to be healthy for me, but it is nice to hear a person showering me with compliments from time to time.  He’ll be super stoked when I can fit into all my fancy dancey old lingerie.  Bow chicka bowwww!!

@ goodnuff – Awwww, thanks!  That was a super sweet comment, and it made me feel even more gushy.  I miss it when my bloggy buddies aren’t blogging too.  I totally miss Jel and Pepa blogging all the time.  I wanted to make myself blog in the last four weeks, but I just had zero freaking focus, and I couldn’t seem to make myself even get on the computer.  Now I have decided to just not go on facebook more than once a week, and spend my computer time doing blogs instead.  Both of them take up too much time!

@ jewlz – I still have to catch up with reading everybody’s blogs.  Yipes!  I think that is going to take me a few hours because it has been so long.  I miss the support that I get from here, and I definitely miss reading about how everybody is doing.  Public journaling is sooooo sweet.


remember that time… November 16, 2011

Filed under: Life, The Universe, And Everything — didibuttonsley @ 12:59 pm

Hey, remember when I kept up with my blog from week to week?  I miss those days.  I do.

I plan on getting back to at least a couple of posts a week.  I’ve had a case of the psycho-scatterbrainitis brought on by: moving a thousand miles, trying to find ample clients and new stores to carry my crystals, dating the coolest guy ever, and having my cousin and her two young children move in with me.  Holy flippin’ adjustment period, Batman!  Things are getting better and brighter each day, and yet I still felt that my emotions were too all over the place for blogging.  I know.  My emotions are already all over the place.  I am impulsive and banana-sandwiches-shit-city insane.  Ah, well.

My weight was 193 when I got back to Wisconsin and now it is back around two hundred and I need to admit that to myself and the world.  Moving home caused some eating ruckus.  I was dining out a TON (I am not doing that anymore), going out and drinking beer a TON (not doing that more than once a month now, and am limiting myself to only two or three beers if I do go out), and then after my cousin moved in  I was eating a lot of sweets.  That last one is still tricky.  I have never been a sweets person, but my cousin bought four boxes of brownie mix last week because they were on sale.  She also bought a whole bunch of blueberry muffin mixes.  Yipes.  There have been pies and cookies and cakes in my house, and that is very new and different for me.  There has been a steady flood of chips, soda, crackers, candies, cookies, ice cream, and cake around here, and I’d like to staunch the flow somewhat.  I’ve never kept that stuff in the house (ice cream sometimes) so seeing it around made my brain go a little crazy.  Now that I have been eating it regularly I am getting sick of it already, so that is a good sign.  Letting myself eat garbage seems to break the fixation on it.  Enough about that.

On the plus side I get in a lot of walking now.  Chris and I get out and do something every time we are together (which is pretty much all the time for the last month).  We take walks to the lake or down by the harbor, visit parks, and also wander around in one of the many malls around here.  We went to the Museum of Science and Industry in Chicago several weeks ago, last week we visited The Domes (horticulture conservatory) , and tomorrow we are taking the train to Chicago to visit the Shedd Aquarium.  It’s really great to date somebody who enjoys doing just about everything.  The two of us have a list of places we want to go to, and have visited somewhere new at least once a week.

I have done aerobics a few times, and even got my cousin to do it with me one morning, but still haven’t gotten back into a regular routine.  I have sworn that by the end of the year I’ll be doing my Jane Fonda four times a week again.

I’d like to make this blog longer, but I need to hop in the shower, do laundry, and run errands.  The past four weeks have been very positive and eye opening for me.  I’ve had a lot of recent musings on my body image, my ideas about love, and all sorts of other nifty things.

I ought to be updating regularly again… I guess I just needed some time off.  I spent over a year focused on getting over things, accepting responsibility for myself, and moving forward with my life.  I wrote about issues and went over my habits with a fine toothed comb.  I really needed to live in the moment and take a self-analyzing break for a little while.

I haven’t read any blogs in three weeks, so I will also be catching up with that as well.  Part of me feels like I abandoned everything and everybody so that I could roll around in my new state of puppy love.

Hope everybody is doing well and staying content and on track!