Fat as Mud

01 Feb, 2009

uh oh… Super Self-Destructo

Posted by: billie In: blogging helps

As often happens with diet blogging, if i am absent for a week, it has been a week of diet disaster. I got up this morning and looked at my body in the mirror and i am so fucking fat . . . and lazy.

I have been out of control with food, not with obvious binging, with the snacking all day with no regard.

This week for the fat part of my life:

  • a whole batch of ambrosia
  • 1 1/2 dark chocolate bars, 1 square at a time
  • about a dozen grilled cheeses
  • a couple of KFC toasted wraps with potato wedges
  • about 5 or 6 bottles of wine
  • french toast
  • chips
  • i’ll think of more stuff to add
  • i’ve gained around 5 lbs

Last week we got some ice and snow, and my daughter didn’t have have school for 4 days. Even my university was closed for a couple of days and i skipped class on thursday rather than drive, even tho it was probably safe. So i took an entire week off of school with the half-ass idea of getting a lot of work done at home.

This week for the lazy part of my life:

  • i slept til 10:30-noon every day until today
  • i stayed up till 2am, 5am, 3am most nights
  • i didn’t leave the house for a week, didn’t even step outside
  • no exercise at all, not even the wii fit
  • i laid up and read a book trilogy in 4 days
  • i didn’t even take time to email my dad for a few days
  • i avoided my blog or reading all my chickie’s blogs
  • i didn’t touch anything related to my course work for the whole week, too busy eating i guess
  • i have barely kept up with house work

So, i’m back … because knowing how to lose weight isn’t enough. I know that i have to eat less & move more. In order to lose weight and stay in the right mindset, a girl has to have some kind of support system and 3FC is my support system. Whether people read my blog or not, it helps to keep me on track and reading other people’s blogs helps a tremendous amount.

In light of my renewed mindset, i’m going to go have a grilled cheese for breakfast with some eggs and sausage. Something to soak up last night’s alcohol.

3 Responses to "uh oh… Super Self-Destructo"

1 | inkheartmeg

February 18th, 2009 at 12:22 am


Hope all is well. Hang in there.

2 | mathsoup

February 26th, 2009 at 4:58 pm


Same thing with me as far as lack of blogging goes. Glad to see you’re back. Keep at it!! πŸ˜€

3 | melly

April 8th, 2009 at 5:20 pm


Hope you’re doing better! I’ve fallen off the blogging wagon but I’m back. You’re right knowing how to lose weight isn’t enough, and blogging helps me stay accountable too. Hope to see ya back soon!! πŸ™‚

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